i like this idea. she wrote a Letter to herself, maybe her past.

Letter, to herself is really very very amazing..
i can see how some lines seem to be reflective of Ayu herself...

she talks about the loneliness, and how people have misunderstood her...much like how the Party Queen idea is all about...and...hasnt Ayu aready spoken about being missunderstood since...6 years ago?!

Misa, I don't have time to translate the entire song right now, but I'd like to point out one thing about the 5th paragraph:

もしかしたらさ　シアワセなんて
ほんのひと握りしかなくて

I think you should read it as ほんの一握りしかなくて instead of 本の人握りしかなくて.
ほんの = mere; only; just
一握り = a handful of (something); a small amount

So it means something like "If we can only grab a mere handful of happiness"

Yeah, some parts sound pretty weird to me, but I'm not Japanese.
Not among my favourite ones, but I like the idea of writing it to herself.

amazing lyrics but the music & vocal ruined the song for me

Makes sense. I'll change it around a little. Thanks!! ^^

interesting lyrics. the lycris fit the "party queen" theme.

My version for those interested:

Thank you!

this album has a lot of darkness into it... thanks for the translation, its a nice lyrics tho i dont like the song that much =\

Listening to this song now ♥

i thought of something like this when i listened to it...
this entire album seems to be along those lines... she is mussing with herself and everything that has been done...

^^I just think the entire album is so raw, personal, and dark. I mean, except for the first three tracks, but we know she is a lonely queen, so... :/

the music is similar to "Hope or Pain".
I love this song!

Snot!??! That's a word I never though I would hear in Ayumi's lyrics.

I'm liking the lyrics from the album though - they're quite varied.

mi|kshake~

It sounds like she's talking to herself in this song,like "how am i feeling? What am i doing?" :yes . It's like the counterpart to party queen and the dark side of the same situation.

Me likes it :) :yes

I "LOL"ed when I read the "dripping with snot line. But it's still a beautiful written song. Regardless of who it is written too. Too bad Ayu will never give us true answers!

not my favorite track on the album, but it's a nice message. "I love you as you are." I have someone that I feel that way about.

After reading lyrics I love this song even more now, thanks!

Yeah, and I like the idea of her writing this song for herself. Makes it even more interesting.

To: tenshi no hane

And drink a little too much

There is not a word like "sukoshi" or "chotto" in her original lyrics. So I think it's better to delete "a little".