Thank you soo much ^^ I'm happy to hear you think that too :)

so after what u guys said, u guys are trying to say that u all dont feel sad or anything? u all didnt feel sad jus cos ayu wants u to be happy? i dont have the right to be sad cos ayu would prefer us to stay happy.

i dont get it y u guys are treating like nothing happened. yeah i was too emotional. jus expressing how i felt and i get everybody telling me its useless being sad and pity cos ayu probably doesnt want us to be sad. crap.

^I'm not sad in the least bit. (Sure, it's not the best thing that's happened to her, but I'm not in a corner crying my eyes out.) Yes, it sucks, but she's blessed that she still has her hearing in her other ear. So many people in the Deaf world are born Deaf with hearing parents, are isolated in the hearing world, and are shunned by their parents because they think their child is "different." There's also a lack of communication because their parents do not know how to teach or speak SL.

Ayumi has been singing for almost ten years now, with her hearing in her ear slowly diminishing. When you look at it, she's got it better than so many other people. I feel that fans are treating this bit of "shocking news" as the end of the world when, in reality, it could be the start of something new!

THANK YOU!!

Don't feel that way. Of course we're all upset by the news. I was really upset when I first knew about the news too. It's perfectly normal to be sad over it.

We're not treating it as if nothing happened. We're just trying to be more positive about this. :)

Because no matter how upset we are over this matter, life still has to go on.

Exactly thats not what were trying to say at all !! What I mean is that we should all stay positive about the matter ,thats all. Its ok to cry and feel pity for ayu, but in the end it does nothing to help you.Unlike being positive ,moving forward , and realizing this is not the end ^^ Everyone has their own way of dealing with things .... and each way has shown that we care about ayu!

Yes I feel sad about the event but I guess I tend to treat these things as a part of life. I dunno... I guess it's my way of dealing with things. I know that it's going to be difficult for her but as long as she's happy I am going to be happy. She has been in the music industry for a very long time now and it seems she always had a problem with that ear so... guess it was a matter of time.

I don't think it's useless being sad. It's a natural emotion and everyone deals with things in life differently so you should just deal with it the way you want to :yes

I dont understand the argument in this thread. People are saying she is over reacting and that instead of being true to herself and feeling what she feels she should pretend to be happy? Not everyone deals with things in that way. I belive it was actually meant to be positive. Right? I mean look at the title "Ayu in my life" and then the OP preceeded to talk about the positive influences Ayu has had in her life. I dont understand what about that is negative.

Some people like to be strong because of the expiriences they have had.
Some people like to cry because they dont want to keep it inside.
Whatever their reasons are, they are their reasons. And you cant argue with that.

Perhaps a more productive idea for this thread would be to talk about Ayu in your life, just as the OP did.

Personally Ayu has helped me through alot. and I cant always be so strong. So being able to listen to Ayu's music who admiditly cant always be so strong aswell makes me feel as if its ok me be myself.

Since '05 for me. I remember I was like your typical new Ayu fan "WHAAAAAAAAAAA OMG THIS SONG IS SO FREAKING AMAZING!!!!" and the like. 06 Somewhat followed and I got more into here, my nuisance went down a lil, and 07 I caught up with everyone else and was waiting for news here and there. From what I've seen from Ayu, I feel like her character is very similar to mine, like if there may just be a special connection that we have... but the only way she'll connect to me is through her music ^^ I'm pretty sure it's almost like that with most, we're just waiting for our Big (or lil) sis to encourage us, and keep us moving in life. :yes In the end she's just another human, no better or worse than anyone, just a celebrity but I'm glad to see that she doesn't do anything to drastic (or doesn't show it) to ruin her image, in fact she's a pretty good influence except for the few scantily clad outfits, the drinking, and apparent smoking which aren't a taboo these days :laugh

Haha you know...I first got my 1st taste of Ayu in 2005 when I started watching Inuyasha and heard one of the albums from the anime. As most of you probably know Ayu's 'Dearest' was featured as one of the ending songs to one of the seasons and 'No more words' was used as the ending theme to the first Inuyasha movie (I think it might've been the second). I didn't care for her that much as I've said before but in 2006 during the summer I started to get into her trance and thought that's all she was xDDD! But yeah so to make a long story short...I got into her original material near the end of 2006 and then last year I entirely fell inlove with Ayu in like January/February.

I think the thread has moved into the wrong direction. I think alternalist meant to express his personal feeling towards Ayu, and what Ayu has meant in his life.

Of course he can feel sad about Ayu's health. Even if Ayu says "don't worry! I will be OK"... when you feel pity for someone, it doesn't matter if the other tell you WHATEVER. I think this happnes when you are close to one person, I mean, really close, and the other sees you suffering because of your problems - It's nice to be strong and to restrain yourself and say, "I'm going to stay happy and support the other person as good as I can". But in this case, alternalist can suffer this situation as he desires too. He, unfortunately, is not the boy's next door.

Returning to the original idea of the post, thank you for sharing it with us, I think it was really touching. I have also an account of moments of my private life in which Ayu have affected directly, and I undertand how you feel. (I also have a precise moment I remember with the song B&D ^^uuu). I feel "sad" for Ayu, but of course, I do not know her. I have not cried about it. I would like she takes a real rest from all the media and work. But I am afraid this will not happen.

The very first time I see Ayu was back in 2002 in 'Real me' PV.
Since then I started to like her because I thought she is an interesting artist :D

:yes I'm going deaf, and my dad is deaf in both ears (completely deaf in one). I know how annoying it is not to be able to hear good, I can imagine what Ayu's going through. I feel really bad for her, especially because her hearing is important for her career. I've been a fan of hers for.. 5 years now? but I'm not going to break down over it, she's using her hearing loss as motivation to continue, and we should be happy about that. :) It's a sad situation, but she's not letting it get to her, we should be strong and happy for her.

woah, compared to you alternarist, although i've seen seasons' advertisement in singapore years ago, i have only started to support ayu in early 2007 xp

i was amazed by how ayu has became part of your life..and that's great!..i would also like to see ayu in person during one of her future concerts..im only 16 this year..so it's abit hard to go overseas by myself.

Anyway..try not to let your emotions get a firm grip of you..i can understand how it feels when something bad had happened to a person that you've idolize for many years.

Imagine if all members in AHS cannot accept the fact, the whole forum will be full of grief and there will be no laughter..and i suppose no one will want the forum to end up in this situation. So, try to be more positive about it =)...since ayu being the victim did not even despair...and yeah everyone has his or her way of dealing things but we being her fans should stay supportive of ayu and learn to be more optimistic like her.

i was only an ayu fan since august 2007? and ayumi has always been my strength of encouragement and all. i cant remember myself not singing ayumi to myself to calm me down or boost my confidence level. and im so glad to see so many ayu fans here.

if she really were to lose both her ears, or erm *** i think the only song i'd like to listen to is walking proud. its always makes me happier.

omg this thread is so pretty. its like looking at ayu from our perspective in a positive way :)

but all in all,

I first listened to Ayumi when I was a freshman in high school (about 5 years ago). I knew who the artist was, but I had no idea of what the songs were. So, me, along with my first year of Japanese classes, tried really hard to find the song titles and lyrics.

Ayumi's first real impact on my life, is when a guy in my life, lied to me about his feelings for me. For eight months. Every time I'd start to cry, I'd turn her music up, and sing my heart out (poorly) until I felt better.

Then, I had to put my puppy to sleep after almost fifteen years. I got her when I was three, so I don't remember much about life before having her. She was my everything, because I didn't have any friends until I was thirteen, and my family was always gone. So, when I lost her, my whole world fell apart. So, I dedicated "Heaven" to my puppy dog, along with my tattoo of her.

Her lyrics, and attitude are so powerful to me, that most people don't understand it. Maybe someone here will get an idea of how much she's changed me. :)

LOL indeed this thread seems to go in the direction of when we fell in lurve with ayu etc etc.. :P:P:P (i dont rmb how i got to know ayu & that somewhat really get on my nerves.. :irked:irked:irked)

i was of coz when i heard of the news, shocked & saddened by it but i still hope all is well for her..i got to know abt the news when my colleague told me (well they ALL know what a big fan i m of her hehe :innocent:innocent:innocent)

now my feelings towards that news changed: from sadden to hopeful (for her)

hope that she will not strain herself too uch AND AND AND continue to enjoy her life.. :love:love:love:love:love:love:love:love:love:love :love

I agree with this entire post. I feel like people are getting almost offended that alternist is sad about the news. If that's how he feels, then so what? Who are any of us to tell him how he should feel? Personally, I'm not sad about it. It's only one of her ears, and she's continuing, so that's what really matters. How can any of us say "Ayu wouldn't want us to be sad for her?" Although many people wouldn't want people pitying them, we really don't know how she feels in that respect, so lets stop with the whole "You should feel this way" arguments.

Back on topic (and away from the bullying...), Ayumi did something for me that no other artist really could: made me feel good about being different. Helped me to accept myself and realize it's a good thing that I'm not like everyone else.. that I have to have some pride in myself, that it's not the same thing as having an ego and also that I must rely on myself more rather than always on others.

It's strange how someone from such a different background, walking such a vastly different path could seem so much like myself in the places that count.

why this thread is bumped up again? first of all, i didnt even break down NOR cry. I know crying doesnt solve anything but which part of my freaking 1st post specifically said that i cried nor break down? WTF?

i definitely didnt expect so many people telling me what to do. Worst is that i have people telling me

1) I am getting over tragic over this. (since when)
2) ayu doesnt need PITY. (in the first place are you ayu? if not shuddup.)
3) talk about a freaking camel toe (i duno what that means. but sounds bad)

^ i will freaking remember the people who said the above. the worst phrase is point number 2. a mod in this forum doesnt mean u know a lot about her. yeah she probably doesnt need pity. But how do u noe? For all we might noe, ayu maybe crying.... ah lazy to argue with u.

my thread didnt meant to sound over tragic or whatever. If u guys are getting so agitated over what i wrote, by all means. I am not affected at all by whatever you guys said cos i am not here to seek attention nor to be liked by anyone here. I am here for ayu. and it is because i am here for ayu, i felt sad for her loss of hearing. I didnt said that i cried nor break down. You guys simply assumed it.

I jus wanna share the connection between my life and ayu. You guys jus spoiled everything. Thanks so much. If you guys (who dont feel sad at all) have nothing to share, then why are u here? You needa go back to where u belong.

And if anyone of u decides to hate me, pls do so cos i am not here to be liked by anyone. If u wanna befriend me, i am more than willing. If not, i wun care. I am just me. i gonna continuing posting in this forum unless i am banned.

are you sure? cuz i dont remember seeing one XD:no

but i think you can see one in her latest countdown 2007-2008 :o