TA Message 377 - An Utterance of Profound Hidden Meaning!
 

All you crazy kids out there who are wondering about ayu & Midori are gonna go completely bonkers when you read this, I was literally screaming at my monitor. XD!!



*Not totally sure what the title is supposed to mean. There's really no mention of ayu's nail artist Bancho in the note, so perhaps she meant the word's meaning ("leader of a group of juvenile delinquents" according to WWWJDIC, in which case she'd be referring to herself as a misbehaving leader of her group/staff) rather than Kanako Miura. I left it as-is just in case I missed something.

**Her words were "daisuki na hito". Alot of you folks who watch anime or study japanese know the possible subtext there.

***The words for "bank account" and "teaching/class/lecture/course" are both pronounced "kouza". Ayu's making a silly pun. :P

Hahah funny blog. Thanks!

I just don't understand ayu anymore. :no

Thanks Deli. :D

Is it not Midoring's smile that I've decided on?

:thud :thud :thud
AYU!! NO!!!!! come back to the boy loving side!!! (meant as a joke, don't read it as something else)

I think I like her over here. ^_~

haha! Ayu is a closet lesbian! You go girl! :P Ayu is so funny. Thanks for translating Deli~ :hi5

*sings* SECRET LOOOOOOOOOOOOVERS!!!!

Ugh, I wanted Ayu with Kumi though ;_; But after GREEN, Midoring is looking very good :O

Midoring is probably the best looking female dancer anyhow. Ayu has good taste~ :P

^ Kayannochi and Aki are prettier :P

i kinda can't understand her message lately

Uh lol. I don't get that message very much but go Ayu.

well if it is, Ayu is happy.. so what's the problem?

But I don't think she's in love with Midoring XD lol




thanks for the translation m( _ )m <- bow X°D lol

Hm... would anybody care if Ayu was gay? That would actually make her more... trying to think of the word... well can't.

uups, is this a controversial subject? @_@

During one of the extras in Arena tour (dont know what year) Ayu did say if she had to date one of her female dancers it would be Midoring. I don't think Ayu is in love with Midoring, But if she is good for her. Atleast it isnt Shuya:P

haha ayu is funny .... I'm starting to lose her language

THX deli!!!!!

I like to think most true ayu fans are open-minded enough, and love ayu enough, that this probably won't affect their fandom too much even if they're against it personally. ^_^

Right guys?


....Right?




:innocent

Absolutely (^-^)b :yes

thanks for translating TA messages as always :D

ayu is WEIRD!

Haha..

..I love Ayu, no matter what team she's on.

Thanks for the translation, Delirium.


I had to read the posts before I understood what she meant by that.

....Oh. Well, it won't change much. lol.

o__O
I'm really starting to wonder if Ayu is a little on this side of the playing field.
Sweeeeeet.

I wish she'd be a little more straight forward.
Sometimes I feel like her blogs are more riddles.

Thanks for the trans Deli

^ Haha.

It's nice to see everyone doesn't care. That's good. No discriminating on AHS. :yes

Is Ayu not so subtly telling us that she's hot for Midoring? It would be interesting anyway...hahaha.

Haha, well I wouldn't mind whatever team Ayu was on. :D

Although, the way she says "is it not" kinda makes me wonder if she's trying to imply that there really is someone else. XDD The direct mentioning of Midoring is very joking.

If so she might have been a little tipsy while writing this. Maybe that's why she didn't see the door too lol.

I dont understand her too HAHAHA...

I yelled at my monitor just now. lol XD

Makes me wonder what side she's on. Haha.

Maybe she's in the middle? Hmm.

Or she could be just joking. Still.

Thanks for the translation.

Shuya is grosss

I can understand Ayu. After Midoring being sexed up for GREEN, the impulses are too strong to ignore. (>y<)
Love and support you no matter the gender.

I'm thinking Banhou as in leader as well.
Oo-sha-re ban-chou♪

I think she's just playing up the whole AyuxMidoring pairing in the GREEN PV and having a little fun with it. :)

i don't understand..isn't that shuya? haha

btw why does ayu use chochan sometimes? wat does that mean?

Chonchan is a cute nickname that her dancer Zin used in his blog to refer to her. Ever since Ayu herself has been using it. I'm pretty sure that's how it goes...

Yup, that's the story.

I'm not sure why he called her "chonchan", my guess is that it's a reference to her hairstyle resembling a topknot ("chonmage") somewhat. Aside from that, honestly, it'd have to be some inside joke they might have about korea. *shrug*

TOTALLY AGREED.

she's just adding on to the hype.

anyway, i think there's a little undercurrent going on between her and zin, instead of shuya as we all like to believe.

sneaky sneaky ayu!

Thanks for the translation!

...I'm confused. What is she saying? Is she gay?
Well even if she was I'd still love her! lol

I always knew Ayu was up to something. =P

I wouldn't mind having her on my team, rofl.

I don't really understand this message.. its getting weirder ~ :P

It's funny how many of us are really excited about the possibility of ayu being gay or in a gay relationship. :P I'm wondering how many here, statistically, identify with the LBGT community. Probably a sizable number.

AyumiBest: Ayu's a big fat tease & so far she hasn't said anything definitively either way!! XD She's hinted, yeah, but... knowing ayu, she won't be able to keep her mouth shut for long, and eventually she'll tell us for sure. She has a hard time keeping secrets, especially when it's something she's excited about. :P

Lol. Bisexual, gay, straight, I don't really care. She'll always be our Ayu haha.

Well, it WAS her who broke off with Nagase right? =P

Veeeeeeeeeeeery interesting Ayu. Well, you know what they say, everyone's a little bisexual~

I wanted Ayu with Kuu too. Or at least a song, even if their styles are different.

If this is the reason that Ayu and Nagase didn't work out, it will remind me of what happened to Ross in Friends.

ah hahahahaha! carol and susan...
:lech well if it were to play out exactly, nagase would have to walk ayu down the aisle and hand her off to midoring...

but i think ayu is just kidding around with us?
i never would've thought midoring, i always thought it would be mika~

I'm fairly certain she wouldn't let any of this stuff slip at all unless she was drunk while writing :P

Haha she's so fun. Thanks for all these messages, Delirium-Zer0. I come here at random times of the day and read these messages. Sometimes they really do make my day haha.

....and all of us here, non-TA, are not supposed to know about this ................yet!

lol

thx Deli!

I think Ayu is probably just kidding around, But if not it wont effect me one bit. I love Ayu for her personality/Lyrics/Voice/Stage Presence. Not for her sexual preference, and if she is gay. Well atleast in America you become more popular when you come out:P

YEEESSSHHHHHH ^^

I'm confused (not in that way)

maybe she's just playing to speculation? just teasing? who knows....

have to wait and see.

10x :)

midoring is hot hot HOTT

but I don't think that ayu would go lesbian anyway lol




some people don't understand that ayu types anything that comes up in her little asian head xDD

thats why she seems a bit crazy sometimes, but I like that :P


I wouldn't like her to be all fake and telling us whatever we would like to hear etc, that would be pretty boring!




ayu is special and shes pretty earthy I think; a pretty real human being :D




thanks for the translation again!!

thanks for the translation

Thx for the translation!!

And hmm, lol, its just weird. "MY Midoring", this whole smile thing, GREEN PV... I wonder, if she would go out from the closet she would do it propely right? Not just these weirdness in her blog. :P Lol, maybe she is just fooling around or who know? Goes for Midoring? It would be rather cool to see a veeery big idol in Japan who would represent the gays over there.

Either way, Ayu will always be my beloved Ayu, so keep your spirit up girl! :heart

i agree. Kayano and Aki are the best looking female dancers in her crew!!!!!!!

i also remember Ayu saying that if she was a boy for a day she'd pick up chicks :roflmao and that Midori is her type :D


i wouldn't mind if Ayu was lesbian. that would just make her more hot in mens evey + make her female fans crazy & happy :P

anyways i think she might be joking here or something, but either way GO AYU~ :luv2

I'm no where near being on that side of the playing field...

but messing around with ayu would be...damn hot :laugh

i think taskinillusion is right though. She's probably just playing it up for the pv lol

thanks deli<3

lol, omg more lesbian talking xD

thanks for translation

Some AHS members have a lot of imagination

Lol. Ayu is ridiculously cute! And she's so... keeping us in suspense! So she likes someone from her dance team? And she likes Midoring's smile! LOL, Ayu's blog makes me happy like a... Santa Claus!

i love Ayuuuuuuuuuu & i love her smile \(*^.^*)/


thankss Delirium zero

Me too :grumpy

Thanks for the translation :)

thanks for the translation! I wouldnt mind if Ayu was lesb.and Midoring is pretty

I think she is just joking around because she know`s many thought Green would be a lesbian video!^^

^ Maybe it was the inspiration though? :yes

J/k, j/k.

It's funny how everyone is discussing this now. :laugh

can't this just mean that they're really good friends...?

nicely said

thanks for the translations

Thanks for the translation.

Gee, Ayu's messages look complicated enough translated, it must drive you nuts sometimes when translating. So keep up the good work, much appreciated.

Ayu did say before if she's a guy, she will go for someone like midori..it was during yo-chan's talk segment for one of the concerts.

I'm so confused.

I must say this - if ayu likes Midoring, she has better taste in girls than she does in guys.

That is my opinion, if you disagree that's cool, but i find Midoring infinitely better looking than Tomoya or Shuya. :P

midoring is more man than shuya could ever be anyway!

GAHAHA!
Remember,,, Shuya is her twin~ XD

you're right )))

i think she's playing with the gossip that she and zin may be dating... but this game is dangerous...

oops, no, she is talking about a woman... well, now i don understand anything... but one things' for sure... ayu always do what she feels like to... so... yay!

This situation reminds me of something I once told a military that that was depressed. He told me that once that his wife was cheating him with one of his work mates and that he couldn't bear it because he was "sure" everybody in his company was already knowing about it and that they'd talk about cheating in front of him just to make fun of him (though he mentioned me they talk about general cheating, not his case in specific). I told him that, before I became a military, if I were on a supermarket, shopping, anywhere and saw a military dressed up on uniform, it wouldn't really get my attention because that was not part of my world. After I became a military, nowadays whenever I see somebody in military uniforms, it draws my attention, because I'll try to check if it's somebody I know, and because now that became part of my life, and i identify with it. The same was with him, people in the HQ would talk almost all the time about cheating, so they were most likely not making fun of him, just being their useful self, talking about their useful stuff but just because he got "hit" with being cheated, he started to associate things to his emotional problem.

Ok, what does this crap has to do with ayu?

ayu made GREEN with the homosexual ayuxMidoring theme. That made people aware of that. Now, anytime ayumi mentions Midoring, no matter what she wants to say, people will immediately associate the GREEN PV, and think: hmmm ayu x Midoring.

I'm not discarding the possibility, but I personally think at the moment this is more of some sort of free association. In this message ayu just seems crazy and random. Doesn't necessarily hint that she has something with Midoring just because she mentioned her name. It's obvious that ayu became closer to Midoring (also not necessarily the intimate relationship kind of thing) because they both had to record a scene together, that was probably not shot in one take only, and that needed some training with both, so no wonder that made ayu grow some more empathy for her. ;)

yah me too... is she like having a good mood for this past few month? she seems so happy in every diary

Ayu has good taste :lech ... lol


..Midoring..:luv2

Something must have really been lost in translation then, because in the original japanese it is VERY clear that she's trying to hint at liking Midoring. Whether she's doing it to tease us or to admit something is still unclear in the message, but she doesn't seem like she's just being random in the original message. In the original message she's very clearly saying "Maybe I like Midoring!!!" The "maybe" is there, yes, but it's very clear what she's teasing us about.

Haha... THX for the translation.:)

Well Midoring IS pretty hot now that I think about it and they have been together for 8 years. There's no question about it that they've become closer in those 8 years...in a friendly way or sexually. Perhaps the dancing part in GREEN PV really fiddled with Ayu's heart haha.

Ayu is really great for taking care of her friends/staff. I dream I could be one of her close friend :sighs

Whatever she means, she's funny and I still love her. :)

Thanks, Deli.

Even if she did mention her "liking" for Midoring, still doesn't mean she's not being random in her message, specially because of the other stuff she's saying there, which put into the whole context, shows that there's actually something comical to it. She made the GREEN PV, she interacted closer with Midoring and grew more empathy for her, and not only her fans but even her staff must be often joking around about a possible affair between the two. Doesn't mean necessarily they have to be into a relationship. I think we can easily assume ayu became closer to Midoring, but still doesn't necessarily mean it has to be something intimate. Maybe ayu has changed, but I definitely got a totally different feeling from her speech when she was talking about her real love matters, regarding Tomoya, etc, and they didin't usually sound like this, but then I could be severely wrong. By reading this translation, it didn't really sound like ayu was really hinting that so seriously. So much, that after I have watched the GREEN PV and after I read this, it still made no difference in the way I think about her probably having an affair with Midoring. I guess I'd just need more evidence to take that seriously ahahha

If it were to be true though, I wouldn't really mind it at all, as it doesn't really make any difference to me what's her identity.:yes

meh ayu is ayu.

she's weird.

If they're going out or if ayu's just being off again, we'll find out sooner or later.

ahah yeah! :) Let's see how things will turn out.

Ah, I thought you meant she was ONLY being random & talking nonsense. At least you see that the nod is there. But I don't think she's just joking around based on rumors. She probably would if tabloids were talking about this, and if alot of TA messages were asking about it she'd probably say "I'm getting alot of messages from everyone asking 'Are you dating Midoring?'" to preface anything on the subject.

The way ayu's hinted at stuff before (stuff she was happy about anyway), she'd sorta talk like she was joyfully & mischievously dancing around the subject (like in my head it literally looks like she's skipping happily, lol), and then once she was allowed to give the details, she'd be like "GUESS WHAT? Awesome thing!! YAY!" not unlike her CDL announcement. Compare this too the tongue-in-cheek "DJ Ozma (my future lover, hahaha)" that she said in a previous message, and her flat-out since-deleted admission of "Shuya and I are NOT dating!!" and she & her staff finding it so completely ridiculous that the rumor about her & shuya would spread at all.

Ayu's just treating this situation very very differently, which gives alot of us reason to believe that she's really with Midoring, really happy, but not sure how much she should give away because she's not sure how everyone will react to it.

I'm not calling anyone who doubts it anti-gay or stupid or anything horrible like that, but I have to ask - those of you who don't think ayu is with Midoring, how many of you are anti-gay? How many of you are totally 100% sure that ayu could never be in a gay relationship? And how many are instead sorta hoping ayu & Midoring are together but don't want to get your hopes up? And be honest, both with yourselves and with me.

I'd be willing to hazard a guess that it's WAY more "ayu could never be gay, no way, if she is I'll freak out" people than "I dunno, i'm just being cautious and don't want to jump to conclusions" people.

I'm not saying ayu is 100% for sure in love with Midoring, I'm just saying it's entirely possible, and we shouldn't discount it as a possibility.

This was a really long-winded way of saying "keep an open mind, we'll see what ayu tells us."

Well, if she is, I have no problem with it. I'm quite open minded about that, fortunately, and not only regarding artists. :yes But I personally don't think she's having anything with Midoring other than just friendship. At least not yet, even though there's the GREEN PV and this message, but I sort of feel they aren't enough to make me get hinted about it. Funny enough, if ayu were a man (and Midoring too), I'd kinda be on the other side, and be more on the "certain" side that it might actually be true they were having an affair (hopefully this doesn't kill the concept I gave of being open minded LOL). But it's just how I usually have seen some girls doing (and never guys). Some of them love joking about loving each other, or that they'd totally have an affair with the other because she looks so hot, but they're often just joking. ahha I guess I'm speaking a bunch of nonsense now.

Maybe she was confused because she hit her head earlier and didn't know what she was typing anyway. XD

random, but thx deli for the translation

^ You what's sad, I can easily picture that.

Whack in the head + alcohol = lesbianism? XD

Well, maybe when she drinks she gets a little too friendly. lol And hitting her head may have caused to let her true feelings be known. XD