[Delirium-Zer0]

Funny story! I signed into TA this morning and saw FOUR MESSAGES to translate. x_X!! I did the first two, and then did other stuff for a good part of the day. Then I signed back on tonight, finished the other two, and they were really really really long o_O!! And THEN! I refreshed the page, and while I was translating, Ayu had blogged AGAIN! Luckily it was a short entry.


RECAP FOR THOSE WHO DON'T WANNA READ THIS HUUUUGE POST:

Maro did the best christmas tree decorating, ayu has a weird sleep schedule, ayu is very stubborn about doing things herself even to the point of injury and her staff totally loves her & wants to help (it's a good story, you should read the post), an uncut version of AT08 WILL be released on DVD, ayu taped two TV lives today, and apparently it's December now.

Enjoy the translations!

Auu~...
No. 352 30 November 2008 7:05 AM

Maro's photo was uploaded in Today's Photo, to my great delight, and I thought after having been on the computer for 2 hours that maybe I should do a post after that, but then I wasted time and then I went to sleep.

So, having gotten impatient at 2:00 AM, after having wrongly guessed that it was about 2:00 PM or so (lunch time), this silly Hama-chon knew that midnight had already come once she came out YO!!

See, I'd been having a REALLY nice dream, so when I woke up I thought I should go back to sleep and maybe continue the dream, but when I eventually did go back to sleep, it seems the dream had ended without me already. (lol)

Now, if I may say what I've been up to...

I've been working lyrics for a new song (not the one I recorded yesterday, it's another one).

And it's really hard rock!!!!!! !!

The beginning of it borrows your tension until the moment it really grabs it, LOL.

But I was able to do good---- o/~ I'm happy with it (*^_^*)


Aah! Which reminds me...




Maro's T-Shirt doesn't have a deep V-neck today, sorry (lol)... next time look forward to it!


Well, although I was interrupted halfway I can't seem to go back to sleep, so after this I'm gonna do the Christmas Tree decorating------!! o/~


This is work that I really really love doing every year. (lol)


But some of my staff already are decorating trees everywhere.

Just now I went ahead & counted them to see, and there are 6.
I said, "6!!!" all serious & surprised. lol


I thought should take a photo of whoever did the absolute most beautiful decorating~.

Hence, the Today's Photo upload!



-Hamachonchan.

Going back to sleep...
No. 353 30 November 2008 10:16 AM

...I thought I was going back to sleep??? haha

I'm awake now~~~~~~ (^_-)*

I should be slowly getting ready.



Today again, under the same sky, everyone have a lovely day (*^_^*)

Just barely made it...
No. 354 30 November 2008 8:53 PM


Today is the on-air date for the final japanese show in Yoyogi.
I thought I could post something for you to read before the broadcast
started if I dashed over here.

But... I'm pretty sure this will take a long time to write, so it'll be fine for you to read it after the show has ended.



While editing the show for tonight's broadcast, I reeeeeeeeeaaally remembered alot of things.

Good things, bad things, everything.


I was able to objectively look at the Yoyogi performance with fresh eyes, and then, with amazing speed, my memories of it all came back.

But although it's not much, this one writing will not be the usual length, so since this is a serious matter and I'd like to explain it, please listen to me talk about the start of the tour...




It was the day I said, "tomorrow rehearsal ends!".

At last, we found ourselves at the starting line, the first day of the show was right around the corner, it was the big moment. Through my own imperfections & carelessness, I had an accident.

I worked so hard experimenting on every single thing, desperately, for months. "One more day!!" I'd say, and that would be a mortifying day where I was mad at myself...



But basically, at the time, I tried to understand completely that I didn't have the type of personality where I'd talk to other people about my personal feelings on things at all, and I needed to resolve that.

But originally, in order to attack the places that weren't flawless, after the accident, I'd put practical questions up against this difficult situation. Of course, it wasn't possible for me to participate in what would be the last rehearsal.

So yeah, the rehearsal was performed without me. I was very apologetic and regretful about it, which was really baseless, because I was in the hospital.




So then that night, after the rehearsal was finished, I suddently got a phone call from Go-mi.

He said, "You can't keep working so hard by yourself! Why do you think we're here?! We'd defend you to the very last no matter what!! So please, depend on us more!" He was seriously yelling at me.

And immediately after this I got another call, this time from Peco. "Ayuchan," she said, "if there's something that's too much for your abilities, when it gets to be too much, we're all absolutely completely able to handle it. So it's okay."

And before Yoyogi, Kayanocchi called many times even while I was crying, saying "All the guests are waiting for Ayu-chan, so we would like to play your songs. So we'll do what we can to keep trying until Yoyogi." She said this over & over again.





These three people have been kindly watching over me for the last 10 years, so I've kept running alongside those three.

But in these whole ten years, they'd never been able to share their emotions straight up with me.

So my heart was incredibly shaken by it.


How can I explain this... until that time, I was stubborly straining myself with everything, and at the moment I knew how they felt, I released myself.

And then I got to thinking.




If I have these members, we can absolutely struggle towards our goals together!
I made a pledge to myself that when we start something, we should do it to the end!!



So after making that decision from the bottom of my heart, when I saw all the members & many of the staff who were at Yoyogi, how do I say it... I was so thankful and felt so warm, that I absolutely believed that even if the curtains never opened, this tour would be absolutely amazing.



So there were various things this year's tour started with....




And I just barely made it in time.
I did pretty awesome writing this.


If you read all the way through it, I thank you.
See you later.

Part Two...
No. 355 1 December 2008 12:20 AM

So, did you see it, everyone??
It felt like just an instant since it was only 90 minutes long, definitely.

Being such a restricted time, there are many scenes cut out, and when you see them you'll understand.

And yet the only scenes I couldn't cut no matter what were things like before the curtain went up, the wait for the encore, the wave...

In any case, everybody in the venue's faces are shown.

Only in those places were no cuts made. Did you notice?

Basically, everyone is important to the show, not just the people who helped create it, and I wanted to edit the show in a way that conveyed that.


And so, everyone who was able to watch, you'll get the whole show when we release the uncut edition on DVD! Those who are regretful because they couldn't watch today, don't be sad, it's okay!!




Because it will make it a more brilliant piece of work, and make it a brilliant shining crystal, I'm going to properly start a trip to everyone's origin.

Please wait for that.



And when I can take the time to, I'll write the proper continuation to the tour story I wrote about earlier, since I haven't yet.

Please look forward to it.



And looking at everyone's messages was almost dangerous to do, they made me cry.
So now with my nose running, I have to get back to work.

Starting today,
No. 356 1 December 2008 11:34 AM


It's Decembeeerr!!!

Today, I tackled 2 TV lives with the band. (^_-)-*