i have mixed feeling when reading your post.. i don't know whether i should laugh at you or console you.
But seriously, (after some rational and serious thinking) I think it is really good that you are honest to your feelings, and you have a place to open up to, instead of bottling up in your heart. =]
anyway, what i wanted to say is that, good things will come/ happen when you have straightened up your thoughts/ feelings. Have faith in yourself, that's what ayu has been emphasising in her songs. Don't mind what others say about u. Even ayu also doesn't even care about what other people says.
