In March 2001, “Ayumi hamasaki” image was found everywhere in a town “Shibuya”.
This image was the cover of handpicked album which a tear flowed down on a black and white Ayu face. Now, thousands of crying Ayu appeared in everywhere.
The album organization sent the message to Ayu that his new handpicked album will be issued. After 3 years, we just know this message make Ayu shocked so much
Ayu: because this album was issued in a no-suited situation. No, to me, my handpicked album shouldn’t be like this though I always expected and wished I could issue my handpicked album.
but the organization told to me suddenly “ xx month xx day, your handpicked must go to market”
Go to market? What means? My god, these words really beat me so hard.
We also recorded Ayu who renew all the songs in his handpicked album.
“just a handpicked album, why does she renew all the song?” at that time, we all didn’t understand.
Now, when we think about this thing again, maybe this thing is just his little protest to his organization.
In the period of new album issued, “ayumi hamasaki” appeared in 40 magazine covers in market. These were a decision of Ayu.
Under the condition of so hard work and full of schedule, Ayu actually finished the shot of 40 magazine covers; we seemed to see Ayu was cheating herself
Even to workgroup, Ayu appeared so strict that never happened to her.
Ayu: we have changed our cloth and ready to go. But we were demanded to wait for a minute. No one told me why. Waiting for what? What make we have to wait? Why don’t they explain all things?
Not only ayu was waiting, all the workgroup members were waiting all along.
This was a shadow that couldn’t bear any mistakes and never compromised. We all clap eyes on this shadow silently
Report:why did you make this decision ( shoot for these covers of 40 magazines)
Ayu: If this was just a common album, I wouldn’t do like this. But, you know, this is my handpicked album. Maybe this is my last album. Maybe I couldn’t get the chance again. I also want to give me an orientation
Ayu: At that time, I give myself an orientation that I am just person who is called “ayumi hamasaki”, a single person, just a female, but I am also a part of organization, and make it clear that I am an important product of an organization that named Avex. I always told these to myself.
Reporter: what you did just force yourself?
Ayu: yea, So I think I will be over.
Reporter: “Over” mean you will retire?
Ayu: Retire? I didn’t think too much and didn’t make a detailed decision. I just wanted to leave.
In the day handpicked album issued, a female singer album of another organization is issued.
All medium pays so much attention to this “war” abnormally.
As a result, Ayu’s handpicked album sold amount exceeded 4 million.
A reluctant decision actually affected the stock price of an organization
Now, Ayu had made an strong decision.
Ayu: If I couldn’t back off, If I couldn’t turn back, I will go on my way intently. I don’t how to explain it to you…… although I am a part of this organization, I resisted it.
After half an year, a PV explained all things directly. <<Dearest>>
Finally, she found his own place, but she also found she had to continue to fight all along, so how deeply his despair is actually?
This entire thing let us recall her old song << A song for XX >>
“Why am I crying?
Why am I lost?
Why did I stop?
Please tell me
when will I grow up?
How long can I stay a child?
Where have I come running from?
Where am I running to?
I had no place to live. I couldn't find one.
I don't know if I could have any hope for the future.”
(To be continue)
