Ayu: at that time, I am at a loss and don’t know how to express my feel. So I told that to producer. He asked: do you feel there four walls are around you (front, back,left,right). I answered at once: right. It seemed there is so broad space around me and I could get the hope easily and all things seemed beautiful and glaring. But those aren’t the truth.
Reporter: what color of walls?
Ayu: just white
She felt the despair again though reached on the top of place
At that time, we called Ayu again and hoped to interview at her home because we want to see a real Ayu. But, our last require was rejected, why?
Ayu:I don’t believe your reason of interview in my home. Do you just want to learn a real me? no,I don’t think so. I feel I am just forced to compromise this interview than any time.
we can’t deny what she said
Are there another Ayu hide beyond of the one in front of us?
After graduating in middle school, Ayu often go to Shibuya. When we began our following interview, we also went to Ayu’s hometown, but we just got those information following:
She lived with her mother and grandmother after her parent divorced
Now, ayu has forgotten her father face.
Before this program, we are required to not to use her photo in the period of living in Fukuoka
Now,Ayu is 25 year old.
Ayu:I couldn’t forgive myself in the past, including all things in the past. I felt I has been knocked down by the past and don’t hope my past is reviewed by anyone.
“Will you follow me to come back Fukuoka?”
This is Ayu’s advice.
In the interview, Ayu said:
“The truth, actually not just one, the truth of every one felt is different. After understood those, I felt so easy and free. So it isn’t necessary to hide my past.
For five years following interview, we finally reach to the end of way
Ayu: yea~~~ I often come here; the old and broken boats are also there. I can’t remember which one I go to fishing with, I dived from here and was blamed. These things happened in my child. It is so obscure but I think he should be my father.
Reporter: is he really your father?
Ayu: I think so, so many fish tools in my home; they all are kept all along.
She really don’t hide herself.
(Some children called Ayu, but they called “Ayumi”, not “Ayu”)
Ayu:my god…… I am actually called “ayumi”
Child:where you go?
Ayu:school
We never saw so calm expression in ayu’s face. Of course, she is also a common girl in 25 years old
(in car)
Ayu: just near
Reporter:do you need to got off for a look?
Ayu;en…..in about 17 or 18 year old, my grandmother went to this hospital for sick.
At any time, Ayu’s grandmother always supports Ayu and protects her all along.
Ayu: at that time, I am in a loss and often in a daze to sit in this park.
Ayu: At the day, it was happen my debut album would be recorded. My first record. Before I leave, I told my grandmother that I had to leave for my debut album record and after finished it, I would come back at once. So waiting for me. At that time, my grandmother had been in a dizzy sleep and can’t eat any food, but just that moment, she actually cried.
Just in the morning of Ayu’s debut album record, her grandmother left her for ever.
Before Ayu came in the record room, she received this unlucky news
After that, Ayu begin his article tour.
<<poker-face>>
She held so many concerts in Fukuoka, but she always avoided to come back this park.
Now, with the power of camera, she came back here and faced a past Ayu……
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