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Here are my two cents:
I really thought this video was an interpretation of herself in the industry and her past. I don't think the Timmy character was entirely good, but he wasn't entirely bad either. I thought he represented the fruits of the music industry, and perhaps even a little bit of Max Matsuura.
"A human is much stronger
Than I thought, isn't he?
I've stayed in the darkness a little longer
But it's time to go"
In the beginning, Ayu was "asleep". Her eyes are closed, but the music industry lured her to wake up. It lured her with the ideas of fame and fortune. But we know Ayu was not a strong person back then. She wrote a lot about her weaknesses, her loneliness, and her struggles in A Song for XX and LOVEppears. We see Ayu in a dark room with a bunch of barely clothed guys. I think these guys represent the Ayu that was lost, weak, and felt naked. They kind of reminded me of zombies (I'm sorry, I don't think these guys are buff or anything, I think they are too thin and hungry!). The Timmy character encourages her to keep trying. Eventually she decides she has to move on, but she doesn't get rid of them. She simply compartmentalizes them, opens the door and closes it to another room.
The next room we have a bunch of guys working out and are significantly stronger and more active than the guys before. I think they represent that she put a lot more effort to be respected in the music industry. She learned other abilities besides just singing. She learns to dance more (more dancing in this room than the room before). A man is pole dancing, which she did in 1LOVE. The men are also more decorated and clothed, which may represent how she was more fashion forward. Eventually, she earns the respect of everyone (the music industry, fans) and they are there to back her up.
In the next scene we see the protectors (the music industry, her fans) and Timmy chanting. She looks like a queen. She has conquered everything in the music industry, winning Japan Record Awards, and is praised.
However, at night, she is still haunted by her past and feels lonely. All her awards and protectors are not with her when she is at home by herself. She is pulled by the weight of her emotions that she hid, and she falls off the throne. She begins to cry because she never fully healed herself from the inside. She is unsure if she wants to keep on staying on her throne, and she consults with Timmy who keeps pushing her and luring her with the fruits of the music industry. However, it's these pains that she has from her private life that really put her back on the throne and keep her singing.
The pressure of her past and the expectations of the industry become too great and she simply implodes with a red tear and dies.
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