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Originally Posted by primavera♥
Sometimes it's just good to experience all of the sadness. And have music that you can relate to. Like, it makes of seem like someone understands. Let's you think things through and eventually move on.
But everyone has their own way. I hope just hope love in music will be fine in the end  |
This is pretty much how I go about it. Ayu's songs all sound like they're written from my point of view, nearly every single one of them. I listen to her because it sounds like she understands, not because she's a friend coaching me into forced, phony happiness.
Fact is, whenever my emotions are running high for any reason, I wanna hear someone saying how I feel. I don't wanna hear someone being obnoxiously happy or overconfident or trying to convince themselves "Psh yeah I had a traumatic thing happen and I feel like crap but I AM AWESOME AND HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY." I don't buy it, so I don't like hearing it.
(don't) Leave me alone is my post-breakup anthem. Cuz that's how I feel. I want my friends to just back off and stop smothering me, but at the same time I need to know they'll be there for me when I need to vent or need support or if I'm just breaking down crying and need a hug.
And as a supplement to that,
Wishing has a bit of melancholy to it, especially the Acoustic Orchestra version... as though she's telling Natsuki "You've always been there for me when things were hard, so I wish for you to be happy with the guy you love....
even if that means you have less time for poor, single me." If I've had a bad breakup and my friends aren't immediately around to eat ice cream & watch romcoms with, this song helps me learn to be happy for them until they're available to come over.
Ayu has a ton of songs about a very, very specific rejection situation that mimic one particular rejection in my own life. So whenever I get upset those songs help me through it because I know Ayu seems to have gone through the same thing...
LOVE~refrain~,
monochrome,
WHATEVER,
still alone. A few others. The cycle of being rejected, holding on to hope that he'll come around, accepting it, but still wondering what could have been... It's hard for me to move on from this guy so these songs help me feel better.
M is an amazing general breakup song though... the fight between pessimism & optimism in it really resonates with me. You feel hopeful that you'll find your ultimate love one day, but afraid that it'll end eventually and you won't be able to cope with the pain. That song feels like a hug from someone who understands.