I did my own translation of this one... Some of these lines have multiple ways you could translate them, and the result is that the song is a bit vague and hard to understand, and I think how each of us interprets this song is going to be very very personal.
I read the lyrics and I got much more of a feeling that this was about Aneki. It feels like Ayu may have been considering suicide in the past - and I don't think that's out of left field; I think songs like POWDER SNOW, NEVER EVER, Secret, and a few others sort of hint at suicidal thoughts too - but having resolved not to do it, she sees Aneki's suicide as a betrayal.
Grief over something like suicide is a very, very complicated thing though and I could be completely wrong, of course. But that's the impression I got.
Quote:
One by one, parts of you take turns
going away from me, and I can feel how cold it is.
The pain is just as if, somewhere in my body,
a section has been plucked away.
I searched for someone, I hated someone, I believed in someone.
All it did was inflict wounds that I'm going to have to live with.
Are you thinking that maybe these could be last words?
I don't want to hear that sort of thing, not even for one second.
In becoming a memory, you become eternal
And there's no bigger con you could pull than that.
Give me myself back.
There was a time when two of us smiled cutely at one another,
still able to see the future.
We understood that there was no such thing as forever, but still
we had no sense of how close the end really was.
Slipping away into the night, then melting in the morning, my heart was lost.
I want to forget it all so badly
that I'm not even capable of saying goodbye.
I don't want to keep remembering your last smile
Pretending to be asleep, and then disappearing
"I want to be loved," I wished,
unable to love anyone myself. And that, I know, you...
Are you thinking that maybe these could be last words?
I don't want to hear that sort of thing, not even for one second.
In becoming a memory, you become eternal
And there's no bigger con you could pull than that.
I don't want to keep remembering your last smile
Pretending to be asleep, and then disappearing
"I want to be loved," I wished,
unable to love anyone myself. And that, I know,
you noticed.
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