This uncertainty makes me sick to my stomach. I don't come to the site a lot, but I have been a major fan for many years now. Ayumi means the world to me, and seeing her messages on Twitter when she would post over the last few years has made me feel like the connection was open between her and us fans. It's direct and meaningful. From her heart. Beyond being sad about not knowing what's happening, first and foremost I really hope Ayu is OK. She deserves happiness, and it breaks my heart to think she might be sad, upset, hurt or anything like that…
