[KPL]

I actually liked the fact that she changed, even if for some she's changing "for the worse".

If she's still the girl that writes about rebel and doesn't balance her own complex identities as a woman, a pop star, an artist etc, she will be the ultimate superficial product of "ayumi hamasaki", a perfect, immaculate, strong, yet crafted-by-avex girl that everyone loved so much and found it hard to let go of.

In the past, she stated clearly that she separated ayu from ayumi hamasaki. Therefore, it is by no means we can safely assume that the perfect ayumi hamasaki is a representation of her true self. Now she's caring less. She does not hide away herself anymore. She lets us see who she really is, and a real human being is necessarily complex, and sometimes scandalous too.

For me, it is a good thing that she's being more complex, sometimes a diva, other times a woman who shows more emotions and contemplates about life. I began to feel this way when the whole relationship era began (marriage, devorce, Maro etc). She will have flaws because she stops separating the private ayu and the public image, but as she said, "it's life."