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RAINBOW is my nostalgic album, because it came out a few months after I became a fan and was my first album release. I have very fond memories of that album, though I love some of her other albums more. Still can't believe that was over a decade ago. I still have the poster for it though it's not on my wall.
The other album that has a special place for me is GUILTY. In 2008 my dad told us he had cancer, but he only told us when it was bad and he needed hospice care (my parents were separated and he didn't live near us so he was able to hide it), and three weeks later he was gone. It was a really bad time in my life as I suffered some other big losses in the 18 months after that and listening to GUILTY helped me to deal with the anger and pain I had. I have trouble understanding and expressing how I feel, and some of the songs in this album perfectly described what I was going through so it helped me to deal and express what I was feeling, even if I was just by myself, as I was most of the time. Anytime I feel that kind of pain returning or even if it's a new one, GUILTY is the album I go back to. The emotion is so raw in it and allows me to release those feelings, even though my experiences have been different from Ayu's.
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