[BlackSilence]

So..... My friend went to his anniversary live and boy was she...erm...angry??? lol
First of all, ticket prices are out of this world. The lowest is 10,000yen and up, when his R&R|| tour was like 7800yen and was of MUCH higher production value and quality..she said premium as he always had, is 30,000 for this, and now he has DIAMOND which apparently has a "meet&greet" included...But um, that shit's.........60,000yen LOL (who the fuck he thinks he is? The Beatles????) The whole "meet and greet" though, is just a fancy name, cuz all you get is according to her friends who did have that, is standing in a shady hallway with a group of other fans waiting for an hour to be let in, and when you do, he just goes by giving high-fives to each person not even looking at them, you have a group photo taken with him without ANY chit chat or words exchanged and that's IT. FOR 60,000 FUCKING YEN!!
She said she and another girl she's with is debating to go or not to the rest of the shows that she's got (i think she's got like 3 more, one of which is premium) BECAUSE, according to her, the show, turned the great stuff that he did in his carrer into some weird, sometimes borderline cringy experiences and felt like he was literally mocking his whole career, which seems to be the theme in this tour and that his whole approach on the things he's used to be so passionate about is REALLY bothering her, considering it's a 20 year anniversary of his career!. She said she wanted to sell the tickets but apparently the shows are not selling out and you can still get the tickets on the day of the concert. The saddest part of this is, she added - Chacha and You are gone, HE SAID NOTHING, NOWHERE. She ended up saying that she feels like he's becoming an ego centric douchbag for her to even consider flying to Japan for any of his upcoming projects in the future.

Now let me tell you, this girl i've known for a decade, she's been a devoted fan, frequently going to japan for his concerts and for her to say that, it's not good.... I mean i've seen stuff coming, but, i really thought he would make this right, like i had no idea he would part ways with his "comrades", people who stood on the same stage supporting him for more than a decade and wouldn't say a word about it. I don't know i just find it weird. And to add to that, to mock things that actually gave him the name he's known for? I mean i don't know....Although making a joke out of "big news" with some music snippet playing on last years aprils fools' was a sign that music career has became a bit of a joke for him. I mean it all could be just a PPOV but he has changed, and a LOT.

Honestly i am so conflicted about how I feel about him now, like, one part of me is sad, angry and confused as to WTF happened to him, and the other still has hope he's gonna come back with something really good that will make everyone remember what he was known for. I'm so on the fence right now...