no no no, I was just talking about how I would feel if ayu's not getting no.1 anymore...

What I wanna say is that, the moment my beloved artists didn't get no. 1 was quite painful, but once I've gone thru that stage I dun care about the
no. 1 idea anymore.
So.. right now ayu's still get no. 1, so I dun wanna get that painful feeling that early..