[2004] NTV Special Interview of Ayu(English version) and subtitles

[csliu]

I am a Chinese student and all the words are translated to English by myself from a Chinese paste. So I am sorry if it is not perfect, enjoy it

NTV Special Interview of Ayu ——<Ayumi Hamasaki... despair and decision of light and shadow 25 year old> translation(English version)

the opening
We were once being attracted by these big eyes and so many things beyond these attractive eyes is to be told to us.
We have interview ayu for five years following her, but never think this thing will happen which She led us to visit her hometown by herself.

( camera is turned to Fukuoka dome)
reporter: do you never dream you could hold your concert in your hometown?
Ayu: never! When I were in Fukuoka, I never thought I would be a singer even after I come to Tokyo

Maybe someone has to doubt why ayumi hamasaki is presented in front of us today? After this interview, we understand all things.
(to be continue)

[Unimatrix Prime™]

ooooh! Great! I've been hoping to get a translation of the entire interview, since it seems that there's some pretty important stuff being said! Thanks for the translation so far, and I look forward to reading the rest of the interview when you've got the time!

SSSSssssanks!

[Yazid]

hey gimme the full verse

[HanabiChick]

Thanks for the translation - I'd like to know what was in the whole interview

[csliu]

In 1999, we interviewed Ayu for the first time when she was beng on the way to the top of pop.
His lyrics impressed many girls in senior high school and she was admired by them

Reporter: what make you to begin your singing life?
Ayu: for what? ..... maybe just want to own a place belonged to me.

Ayu in 21 years old answered this question like that
Then, when you walked on street, thousand of “Ayumi hamasaki” could be found.
Ayu try her best to shape every “ayumi hamasaki” image. All these effort made us surprised and impressive.
A perfect article “Ayumi hamasaki”. In this interview, we could see the efforts of ayu so clearly
Ayu : I hope another Ayu could be in the seat of audience so two ayus could see each other on the stage and down the stage.

In 2000, we were following Ayu all along and ever think this interview will be in the end. But until 2001, this interview is continued because in this time, Ayu was facing lose his left ear danger.

Aye: I almost could hear nothing.
Reporter: how about now?
Ayu: I still couldn’t receive the telephone by my left ear

She tried to find an own place while she found scars is bestrew in her body.
in 2002, although some many scars, Ayu gained the reward of Record for two years. From then on, we could feel we is far away to her.
No, it is us who make her far away to us
Ayu said to us after
It is not easy comprehensive each other.
now, these eyes full of energy seem to lose glary.

In 2003, we seem to never interview Ayu.
untill this year, all the mistakes and bias are gone just because this interview for 3 hours

Ayu: after this interview, I always thought all is unmeaningful so I called you at once said “may you interview again?”. Last year, I gained the reward of Record for three years but I am so calm and said with smiling my age has passed.

On Jan 2004, ayu called me and said “I want to be interviewed again”
In fact, before one month, we have interviewed her.
But she said “ I hope that the content interview in that time isn’t used by you”
No one knows the true but Ayu

When we meet Ayu again, we feel she has make some decisions
All made us to understand, in five years, we saw what and missed what.
Now the long interview will be beginning and before this we have to recall the interview before 3 years.

(to be continue)

[Unimatrix Prime™]

Good so far! I knew earlier about her ear problem, but I would've thought that she could've at least found a really good doctor to diagnose her problem and perhaps find a solution (assuming she didn't try to get the best doctors already). Other than that, I can't wait to read the rest of this interview!

[angelic]

Thank you so much! ^__^

[Larisa-chan]

oooh this is so interesting.. can't wait for more! Thank you soooo much! I was wondering why there was a lack of interviews from Ayu for the past year or so!

[CT_Cool]

wow thanks u so much for the translation

[PickleCookies]

Thanks for the translation!

[akatsuki]

thank you!!!

[LEOyumi]

Thanks for it ^^' I'm looking foward to see the conitnuation!

[csliu]

In March 2001, “Ayumi hamasaki” image was found everywhere in a town “Shibuya”.
This image was the cover of handpicked album which a tear flowed down on a black and white Ayu face. Now, thousands of crying Ayu appeared in everywhere.
The album organization sent the message to Ayu that his new handpicked album will be issued. After 3 years, we just know this message make Ayu shocked so much


Ayu: because this album was issued in a no-suited situation. No, to me, my handpicked album shouldn’t be like this though I always expected and wished I could issue my handpicked album.
but the organization told to me suddenly “ xx month xx day, your handpicked must go to market”
Go to market? What means? My god, these words really beat me so hard.

We also recorded Ayu who renew all the songs in his handpicked album.
“just a handpicked album, why does she renew all the song?” at that time, we all didn’t understand.
Now, when we think about this thing again, maybe this thing is just his little protest to his organization.

In the period of new album issued, “ayumi hamasaki” appeared in 40 magazine covers in market. These were a decision of Ayu.
Under the condition of so hard work and full of schedule, Ayu actually finished the shot of 40 magazine covers; we seemed to see Ayu was cheating herself
Even to workgroup, Ayu appeared so strict that never happened to her.

Ayu: we have changed our cloth and ready to go. But we were demanded to wait for a minute. No one told me why. Waiting for what? What make we have to wait? Why don’t they explain all things?
Not only ayu was waiting, all the workgroup members were waiting all along.
This was a shadow that couldn’t bear any mistakes and never compromised. We all clap eyes on this shadow silently

Report:why did you make this decision ( shoot for these covers of 40 magazines)
Ayu: If this was just a common album, I wouldn’t do like this. But, you know, this is my handpicked album. Maybe this is my last album. Maybe I couldn’t get the chance again. I also want to give me an orientation
Ayu: At that time, I give myself an orientation that I am just person who is called “ayumi hamasaki”, a single person, just a female, but I am also a part of organization, and make it clear that I am an important product of an organization that named Avex. I always told these to myself.
Reporter: what you did just force yourself?
Ayu: yea, So I think I will be over.
Reporter: “Over” mean you will retire?
Ayu: Retire? I didn’t think too much and didn’t make a detailed decision. I just wanted to leave.

In the day handpicked album issued, a female singer album of another organization is issued.
All medium pays so much attention to this “war” abnormally.
As a result, Ayu’s handpicked album sold amount exceeded 4 million.
A reluctant decision actually affected the stock price of an organization

Now, Ayu had made an strong decision.
Ayu: If I couldn’t back off, If I couldn’t turn back, I will go on my way intently. I don’t how to explain it to you…… although I am a part of this organization, I resisted it.
After half an year, a PV explained all things directly. <<Dearest>>
Finally, she found his own place, but she also found she had to continue to fight all along, so how deeply his despair is actually?
This entire thing let us recall her old song << A song for XX >>
“Why am I crying?
Why am I lost?
Why did I stop?
Please tell me
when will I grow up?
How long can I stay a child?
Where have I come running from?
Where am I running to?

I had no place to live. I couldn't find one.
I don't know if I could have any hope for the future.”

(To be continue)

[Unimatrix Prime™]

Interesting! It must take quite a while to translate all of this, though! I'm somewhat tempted to make a subbed version of this from the translation, but I dunno when I'd be able to do that

[FancySN]

It would be great for there to be a subbed version!!! This seems like such an important peek into Ayu's life. Now, I finally understand Ayu's Dearest PV.
And A Song For XX!! I read aloud the lyrics for my Interpretation Speech. Everybody thought they were so nice.

[celebskin22]

o man keep it coming! i love these translations, youre doing a great work! thank u so much

[CyberSpaceQueen]

Your translation is very, very good!! thank you!! I like to read this stuff about ayu!!

[rodrigoyuurei]

tnx for the translation

[csliu]

In this year, she held his concert in four domes, motivating more 3 million people. At that time, only Ayu could make 4 domes full of people at a private status.
But, the real battle was just begnning.

Although Ayu with smiling presented in rehearsal hall, the despair and whine that hid in her heart all along have gradually appears in front of us.
It was so mysterious that we always heard this song in many interviews. <<A song for XX>>

It is unconscious that some intermittent singing was heard and abnomal phenomena appeared
Ayu: some odd sound beyond music was heard.
Staff: was it some noise?
Ayu; I don’t know, but it made me not to know which paragraph I were singing.

Now, Ayu heard some odd sound on her left ear. all make us recall the situation that she almost heard nothing on her left ear before one year.
Ayu: if referring the situation before, the noise will be more and more.
Staff: Could you use earplug all alone?
Ayu: once (noise) beginning, nothing could stop it.

With the work amount of that time, it was impossible to change rehearsing plan.
Although earplug was used, the drumming in the ears could be never stopped
The rehearsal was on the way as expecting.
The rehearsal of last day began in a big dome.

After diagnoses, doctor gave an advice to Ayu that no one healed your ear if you continue your work under that high db condition.
But only three days left for her concert when she received doctor advice.

Musical scale wasn’t felt.
Not only sweat was wiped. In the stage with faint glim, Ayu lowered her head and sat down in step.
Work staff detected the abnomal happened in Ayu and felt some nervous
Although understood the problem of Ayu, this situation was just like a running wild horse and no one could stop it.
After made an apology gesture, Ayu disappeared in the corner of stage.
It was the first time that this look of Ayu was seen who is never willing to show his weakness.

(to be contnue)