[2004] NTV Special Interview of Ayu(English version) and subtitles

[ayu_ayu301]

wow thanks for the long translation!!

I really wanted to know what that interview said and your translation is really appreciated!!

[csliu]

2001.6.22
In ayu’s born place, Fukuoka, her 4 dome-tour began formally
So many eager fans out of dome, but no one knew ayu was torturing by her ear problem.
For the problem of Ayu ear, the time of rehearsal was less than that of plan
Just for 30 thousand coming fans, Ayu try his best until to last moment.
Although we had understnded as a pop article, she dooms to be painstaking. When we saw ayu in this moment, we tasted deeply the reality is so cruel.

Two hours before the beginning of concert, a big ball presented in stage.
Ayu uncarefully fell in a two meter hole including a staff who wanted to save Ayu
maybe ear problem made Ayu losing his balance.
Now, we couldn’t help to suspire. Is all testing enough that was given to Ayu by God? Don’t make any fun of Ayu again, please!
But, our camera couldn’t be stopped, the record must be continued.
Do you want to continue? it is enough. So many angery sight gazed us and demanded us to stop the record.

Although so many distrust to organization and so boring ear problem, but the credit to fans couldn’t be lost.
With these thought, the slim of body was put to litter and sent to hospital

From the nervous of staff, we guess the concert may be canceled. But we also thought ayu may have a rest for this reason.
In a dome of no leading actor, the air was full of boring. Now, some critical decsion had to be made.
Staff: we had told to Ayu, the concert of today may be canceled, maybe included tomorrow one
If the concert was delayed, high compensation had to be paid for.
In the stage with glaring light, all things proved the heavy pressure ayu had to bear.
But as an important product of organization, the situation was beyond Ayu holding.
All fans outside of dome knew nothing to the truth, they was just waiting for Ayu concert silently
30 minutes before the opening of concert, the car came back and Ayu in wheel chair looked to our camera and said some words that made our surprise. “The concert is being on his way”

Even was injured, Ayu wouldn’t betray his fans and staffs
Just like that, Ayu in wheel chair came back stage again.
Doctor advised Ayu she must had a rest and there were at lest three weeks to rest for his foot hurt.
“could you run”
“of course” Ayu answer without any thinking over.
Except the openning time was delayed, all things are on their places as plan.
Now, the concert was beginning formally that had to last two hours. In fans’s cheering, the dazzling of light glared again on Ayu full of scars
Almost 30 thousands of fans never felt any abnomal in ayu.
After finishing her dome tour successfully, ayu almost lost her left ear.
<<DEAREST>>

<<JULY1ST>>

<<VOYAGE>>

Now, ayu have reached the top of pop world. all her albums issued were on the top of list.
we continued to following Ayu and wanted to understand all her things

( to be continue )

[charlie 3223]

you are soo awesome fot doing this

[Unimatrix Prime™]

Is it hard to do all this translating? Well, so far, it seems pretty clear to read, but I'm curious as to how many fans outside Ayu's staff knew about the ear infection when it first occured. I remember some sites had mentioned the infection (although they were referring to the NTV special), so I wonder if this was well-know to everyone or not

[mnuguyen]

Wooww, thank you so much !!

[csliu]

Ayu: at that time, I am at a loss and don’t know how to express my feel. So I told that to producer. He asked: do you feel there four walls are around you (front, back,left,right). I answered at once: right. It seemed there is so broad space around me and I could get the hope easily and all things seemed beautiful and glaring. But those aren’t the truth.
Reporter: what color of walls?
Ayu: just white

She felt the despair again though reached on the top of place
At that time, we called Ayu again and hoped to interview at her home because we want to see a real Ayu. But, our last require was rejected, why?

Ayu:I don’t believe your reason of interview in my home. Do you just want to learn a real me? no,I don’t think so. I feel I am just forced to compromise this interview than any time.
we can’t deny what she said
Are there another Ayu hide beyond of the one in front of us?
After graduating in middle school, Ayu often go to Shibuya. When we began our following interview, we also went to Ayu’s hometown, but we just got those information following:
She lived with her mother and grandmother after her parent divorced
Now, ayu has forgotten her father face.
Before this program, we are required to not to use her photo in the period of living in Fukuoka

Now,Ayu is 25 year old.
Ayu:I couldn’t forgive myself in the past, including all things in the past. I felt I has been knocked down by the past and don’t hope my past is reviewed by anyone.

“Will you follow me to come back Fukuoka?”
This is Ayu’s advice.
In the interview, Ayu said:
“The truth, actually not just one, the truth of every one felt is different. After understood those, I felt so easy and free. So it isn’t necessary to hide my past.

For five years following interview, we finally reach to the end of way
Ayu: yea~~~ I often come here; the old and broken boats are also there. I can’t remember which one I go to fishing with, I dived from here and was blamed. These things happened in my child. It is so obscure but I think he should be my father.
Reporter: is he really your father?
Ayu: I think so, so many fish tools in my home; they all are kept all along.
She really don’t hide herself.


(Some children called Ayu, but they called “Ayumi”, not “Ayu”)
Ayu:my god…… I am actually called “ayumi”
Child:where you go?
Ayu:school
We never saw so calm expression in ayu’s face. Of course, she is also a common girl in 25 years old

(in car)
Ayu: just near
Reporter:do you need to got off for a look?

Ayu;en…..in about 17 or 18 year old, my grandmother went to this hospital for sick.
At any time, Ayu’s grandmother always supports Ayu and protects her all along.
Ayu: at that time, I am in a loss and often in a daze to sit in this park.
Ayu: At the day, it was happen my debut album would be recorded. My first record. Before I leave, I told my grandmother that I had to leave for my debut album record and after finished it, I would come back at once. So waiting for me. At that time, my grandmother had been in a dizzy sleep and can’t eat any food, but just that moment, she actually cried.

Just in the morning of Ayu’s debut album record, her grandmother left her for ever.
Before Ayu came in the record room, she received this unlucky news
After that, Ayu begin his article tour.

<<poker-face>>

She held so many concerts in Fukuoka, but she always avoided to come back this park.
Now, with the power of camera, she came back here and faced a past Ayu……

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[CT_Cool]

wow thanks again for the rest of the translation, thanks for taking the time and effect to do it

[Unimatrix Prime™]

Thanks for the great translation! Quite a bit could've been learned from this interview with Ayu, so it's a good thing she decided to follow thru with it and tell her fans how she felt about some things which may not have ever been known without this interview!

[csliu]

Thanks all friends could finish my translation and thank for one who make a Chinese translation from Japanese so that I could translate it to English from Chinese.
To be honest, some words should be translated still be leave in the interviews for translation reason but I think over 90% content has been translated. But I still hope to saw a better and full translation for this interview.
After I download the interview, I have watched it for three times. When I finished all those translation, I also feel so deeply ayu’s despair and decision. As a 25 year old girl, she has to face so many things and have to endure many pressures that on his body and spirit. She seems get so many reward and what she wanted but as what she said it isn’t the truth. May we really could reach Ayu’s heart through his lyric. Her way has to be continued and so many difficulties are waiting for her. I really wish she could be really free and easy even just in her spirit.

[Unimatrix Prime™]

Yea! As fans, some of us take for granted what she releases. Sometimes, we ask for more tracks, or more new releases, but it's things like this interview which show that Ayu's got so much on her shoulders, trying to balance her career with her normal life. Before seeing this video, I didn't know that her grandmother died when she was starting her career, so that made me a bit sad in knowing that Ayu couldn't at least tell her grandma goodbye, or that she succeeded in starting her career.

[Ryoko]

Ooh! Thanks a lot for the interview! Very interesting!

[Connected]

Originally Posted by csliu

...Last year, I gained the reward of Record for three years but I am so calm and said with smiling my age has passed.

Does she really mean her "age" has passed? I would have thought the media would make it a big deal if she did say that, and the word "retirement" start popping up everywhere again. It wouldn't be that surprising, however, considering Ayu never said she's actually enjoying what she's doing now, despite being (really) good at it. Personally I wouldn't want her "age" to be over, but if she feels like it's not worth fighting for, then I respect her decision...

[voltron]

I think she's just admitting that she's not the hot new thing anymore. She's still really popular, yes, but her prime is over. She realizes this, and accepts it. She's established now, so she doesn't have to overwork herself so much anymore.

[jkm444]

thanks for the translation!

[PinkSock]

thank you soo much for the translation!
ayu says many interesting things about her career in it... makes me think about it a lot...
what a sad life she's had, huh?
but at least now she doesn't have to work so hard

[AyuLover]

Thanks so very much for translation! Do we actually see Ayu fall? How exactly did she fall anyways?

[J_X]

oh wah.. thanks dude .. hmm i see i always thought that A BEST cover looked like ayu was upset by the release of the album..

[silentscreamer]

THANKS SO MUCH CSLIU!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

whoaaaa is there a link for the file? or can you send it to me? cuz i want to watch the subbed version in chinese or english!!

yea ayu is so amazing ... she's like superwoman ... she gave up so much for the fans .. and she has so much pressure from the evil corporation avex ... they probably set the date purposelly to battle utada hikaru .. sigh .. and ayu's past ... very mysterious and stuff .. i guess she was ashamed of her past ... so she didn't want people to bring it up .. but she seem to be a bit less uptight and stressed over things now .. maybe cuz she's accepting the fact that she doensn't need to be like that and it's time for her to move on

[PrismaticTears]

Thanks for the translation!

As far as her falling, one's sense of balance is controlled by the cilia and the fluid that's in the inner ear, the cilias are basically the receptors that tell your brain your orientation (as thus spinning around will make the fluid spin and consequently, your cilia will not be happy).

(For a less elementary explanation, go ahead and read this if you're bored: http://users.rcn.com/jkimball.ma.ult...H/Hearing.html)

Anyways, ear infections usually severely impair one's equilibrium by increasing the pressure in these fluid cavities, often by an increase in the actual fluid in there. This will create dizziness as such the receptors can't function properly with the fluid in abnormal conditions and jointly also often causes tinnitus (aka, ringing and such similar sounds in the ear), I'm pretty sure this is what was happening to Ayu.

With her balance out of whack, one can assume that with her disorientation she took a wrong step/turn/lean/angle and fell down the hole leading to happy fun-time. And now you know the rest of the story...... *theme music*

[MellowB]

Ok folks, iam working on subs for the video right now. I'm 75% done till now but i have to sleep now. They will be finished tomorrow and i will them put up here as soon as i overworked them a bit and fixed some timing problems and stuff like that.
So expect english subs for that video soon.
They will be in an add-on form for the original video - so no need to download a new version of the video then (soft-subs).

Thanks a lot for your translation work csliu - its VERY aprenticiated!