TA messages 536: alternative performance for Osaka?

[aura~]

Hey! I post it because is about the flu and we are talking a lot about it.. I can only give a google translation and the original text... but the idea is undertable.. also in the end she says she is gonna do an alternative performance ^^

Japanese text:

Spoiler:

今、
No.536 2009年05月20日 (水) 15時39分

自分が伝えるべき事は何だろう、伝えたい事は何だろう、と、ずっと
ずっと、考えていた。

考え続けていたら、とっくに夜は明け、昼も過ぎていた。







なんとか、どうにか、ならないものかと、ぎりぎりまで粘り続け、
とにかくひたすら走り回った結果、やはり中止決定となるまでの、
たくさんのスタッフはもちろん、私の言葉にならないこの想いは、
みんながきっと一番解ってくれている所だと思うので、あえてここで
無理に説明したりはしない。







ただ、いつもと同じ、変わらぬステージを、寝る間も惜しみ、広島から
大阪へ運び、組み上げ、完成させた直後に、使われる事なく、そのまま
バラシ作業に入る事になった、ツアースタッフの皆。

このハードな日程のなか、心も身体も、万全の状態で臨めるようにと
全神経を大阪城２Daysへ向けて、集中させていた、バンドメンバー、
ダンサーズの皆。

終わらなくて、消えない夢を、届け続けるんだと、改めて広島の地で
思い、教えられ、共にボロボロ泣いて、更に更に結束が深まった、あゆ
スタッフの皆。






座長としては、皆の気持ちを考えると、たまらない。
やりきれない気持ちに、負けそうになる。






しかし、何といっても、一番やりきれないのは、来場してくれるはず
だったみんなの笑顔に逢いに行けなかった事。

どれだけみんなが楽しみに待ってくれていたか、解っているからこそ。

誰のせいでもない事も、解っているからこそ。









今、私が願っている事は、ただひとつ。







中止ではなく、延期というカタチで、代替公演をやらせて欲しい。







頑張ります。

Google trnalsation

Now,
No.536 2009 years Wednesday, May 20 15:39

I will deliver them, will tell you anything, and, for a long time so I thought.

If I had been thinking, after the long night was past and day.







Somehow, somehow, and what is not, continue to the last minute perseverance, I just走RI回TTA results, and decided to stop, but a lot of staff, of course, these thoughts are not my words, I bet most people解っI think where we are, and not described here do not dare.







But as usual, the stage continued, unwilling even to sleep, brought from Hiroshima to Osaka, assembled, finished shortly after, without use, I was just entering the work Balazs, tour all of the staff.

Dates of this hard, physically and mentally, and all the nerves Oosakazyou able to state the bases for 2Days him concentrate, band members, all of the Dancers.

The終WARANAKU, a lasting dream, and I continue to receive, I felt again in the land of Hiroshima and teach, both battered and weeping, further deepening solidarity addition, all staff of the trout.






As Chair, and consider the feelings of all God.
The deadly I will lose it.






But, after all, the most deadly, the逢I行KENAKATTA to everyone that was supposed to smile and visit us.

I was waiting for me just how much fun everyone has, because of the解っ.

Even no one's fault, because we have解っ.









Now, I hope I have is only one.







Not stop in the shape of the delay, I want to do a performance alternative.







I'll try

Better translation by Misa-chan

Now,
No.536 20th May 2009 (Wed) 3.39pm

What can I probably convey, what do I want to convey? I’ve been thinking really really hard about this.

Thinking and thinking, all the way since dawn, and even past the afternoon.

Maybe, somehow, we must stick to those things which seem impossible till the very very end. Anyway, sometimes, to achieve the desired results, a decision has to be made to cancel things. I think that, of course, many staff members are really understanding about my views on these impossible things. Here, I dare not say what it is that is impossible.

Still, as usual, the stage is ever on the move, now from Hiroshima to Osaka, where it is assembled. And shortly after that, we learnt that we will not use it. Even now, I go to bed feeling so much regret, just like all those who worked to make this possible, all the Tour staff.

To my band members and dancers, in these days of hardship, we must use our hearts, our bodies, our entire beings to face the challenge of these 2 days at Osaka Jyou with all our concentration.

To all ayu staff, to continue to receive the never-ending, never-fading dream, we must think again of Hiroshima, what we learnt there, how we cried together, and became so so much more bonded in the end.

As the leader, thinking of everyone's feelings is saddening. But I must get rid of all these negative feelings.

But, in the end, the most saddening thing, is that everyone, who were supposed to come with a smiling face, cannot come anymore.

This is because I understand how everyone has been waiting patiently just to have a good time.

This is because I understand that no one can be blamed for this.

Now, I only have one wish.

I wish that we can continue on and extend our stay here, so we can have a replacement performance.

I’ll work hard for that.

so nice from her ^^