[Utada Hikaru] Volume XLVIII: The Return of the Queen

[amorphose]

^The U.Blog Twitter account tweeted that she was supposedly en route from London back to Tokyo yesterday. He didn't cite anything though.

[AyusakiFan]

I'm deeply saddened to hear this news. I cannot even fathom what she is going though right now as losing anyone to suicide is completely devastating, especially having to be bombarded with it in the media as I'm sure this is probably a hot topic in Japan right now (grieving with family and friends is enough but to have to deal with the media in addition to that must be incredibly hard). As others have stated, I hope her privacy and space will be treated with more respect with time regarding this matter (it should have been initially but the media has already reported on this so we can only hope that they can leave it alone at this point). I hope that Utada and her family can cope with this the best they can and my deepest condolences definitely go out to them.

[koumori]

Originally Posted by Becky

Hi. I feel the need to point out that when news of Utada Hikaru's mother throwing herself off a building to her death comes out, it's probably not the best time to talk shit about her rivals. Juuust saying.

I can't believe this needed to be said, but yes. Any further disrespectful or unnecessary comments will be removed. If anyone has an issue with what someone is saying, please use the report button.

[amorphose]

^I actually find the comment you quoted to be much more disrespectful than the two you removed but you da mod. (_ _)

[koumori]

Originally Posted by amorphose

^I actually find the comment you quoted to be much more disrespectful than the two you removed but you da mod. (_ _)

If anyone finds any of the comments here disrespectful, report them instead of dragging out a discussion here. We can't read minds as to what people have a problem with.

[Delicious n Bold]

She hasn't even been apart of her mother's funeral service?

[Not Fade Away]

Ughhh I'm reading the translation of 'Arashi no Megami' and getting like teary-eyed lol.

Edit: Japanese News Clip About Utada's Mom:

[hayasaki]

Originally Posted by Delicious n Bold

She hasn't even been apart of her mother's funeral service?

Yeah. According to some news, they're still waiting for hikki for her mom's cremation to be done.

[ahtka-chan]

Originally Posted by blackmage

If I remember correctly, Be my last was about her mom so I mean regardless the reason its possible she could write and produce a song about her is all I meant by that.

Be My Last wasn't written for her mom. And I quote Hikki:

(About the meaning of the song) "Ummm... It is about the feeling of 'I want this to be my last" in terms of difficult times and situations".

[Delicious n Bold]

^ That makes sense.
She just asks her mom about it in the lyrics. I've never thought for one moment that it was about her mom.

[hayasaki]

Hikki has finally posted a word on her official site about her mom's passing. It was in japanese though. However in my limited Japanese, i tried my best to translate it. I nearly cried. It seems her relationship with her mom wasn't pretty good over the past few years but her love to her remains intact. Here's my translation.

On the morning of the 22nd day of August, my mother had ended her life.

And because various speculations had arise here and there, let me speak a little here.

For a long time, my mom has been suffering with mental illness. Her own will to undergo treatment immediately was qualititavely difficult. And even as a family member, we were always woried about what we could do, what could be the best thing that we could do for her sake.

From a very young age, my mom's illness has always been progressing. With the symptoms worsening along with the family, her distrust towards people grew. The difference between reality and delusion for her has become vague. She lost her emotional strength and behavioral control. And me, just always being toyed with, couldn't do anything.

Our prayer/wish that my mom be set free from the pain she has been feeling for many years has faced an opposite direction. Her last deed was too sad, just grows more painful with sense of regrets.

She was the one who always gets missunderstood however, is always tend to be afraind inspite of the fact that she's aggresive, always overflowing with sense of righteousness, and the one who loves to smile. The things on her mind moves fast, like a child who's urges are dangerous. Carelessly free; just the sweetest person than anyone else. Sad memories are many, but whenever I think about my mom, in my heart, the only thing that floats and rises above all is her smiling face.

Being her daughter makes me feel so proud. I am overflowing with sense of gratitude by meeting her.

Recieving a lot of warm messages from everyone, I feel that i am supported/rescued by a lot of people. Thank you so much.

2013.08.26
Utada Hikaru

Anyone please feel free to correct me if
there are errors. The original japanese text is on her site.

[~StarCatcher~]

That is very touching. It must be so hard for Hikki...=(

I hope she will get over this, if you could even call it that way, as good as possible!

[AyuGAME]

stay strong hikki...

[bluegie]

Stay strong hikki. I know it's tough when a family member has mental illness. My aunt had postpartum depression and it was quite a rough time. My uncle (mom's brother) had to work at night shift, so whenever she wasn't feeling well, I had to take care of my baby cousin till he returned from work (around 4am ish). When I was glad that she was getting better, my other uncle (mom's brother-in-law) got depression (the time space was just about a year apart). His condition was even worse than my aunt. At least my aunt was fine when depression didn't occur. He was like 24/7 and my aunt's family went through a really tough time.

Yeah it's kinda off topic but just wanna say hikki must be going through a lot when her mom had mental illness, and it must be tougher when the illness led to the worst outcome. I hope she and her dad will be ok.

[toniayu]

My condolences to Utada and her family...

[Delicious n Bold]

Poor utada's mom. That letter was so lovely.

Btw why is it dated August 6? Can she predict the future or something?

[NintendoHTF1242]

Originally Posted by Delicious n Bold

Poor utada's mom. That letter was so lovely.

Btw why is it dated August 6? Can she predict the future or something?

Maybe it was a typo since it is the 26th today.

[hayasaki]

Originally Posted by Delicious n Bold

Poor utada's mom. That letter was so lovely.

Btw why is it dated August 6? Can she predict the future or something?

Sorry! LOL I fixed it now. Anyway, I do hope hikki will be able to
cope up with everything happened. And it really feels good to know that somehow, hikki's got many people to support her during times like this.

[CoriKaru]

I wonder if the condition of her mother had anything to do with her hiatus.

[Delicious n Bold]

Would this be a bad time to say that I finally love all of ultra blue?