TA Message 234

[freedreamer]

Originally Posted by truehappiness

I think I feel sort of ashamed to be an Ayu fan since many fans seemed to dismiss her performance at CDL as a reflection of bad performing and a lack of practice and such. :[

yes i agree. I too felt that something was not right with Ayu. And I could clearly feel it. She was just emotionally not the same. I think it definitely affected her.

And i can't imagine how much she had to resist when recording "untitled ~for her~"...its just so painful...

try playing that song and reading her post again...gosh, its really sad

[CHAS_AYU]

Ayu is so strong!
Support Ayu forever!!

Thanks for sharing!

[pommy48]

aww this made my eyes water, this was a very personal message and long
keep on fighting, ayu!

[music_*]

I am very fortunate.



I thought, if I had to lose my left ear, it's alright that I'll keep trying with only my right ear.
But that's not quite right.



I haven't lost anything.


Because everyone has offered to become my left ear.



So my ears are stronger now.

We will always be there for you!
<3 Ayu!

[Bigtop]

Thanks for sharing!

[Minttulatte]

Ayu really knows how to make people cry. I was holding back tears as I read the message, it was really beautiful.

Thank you for sharing.

[ayu_fantasy]

Ayu, I love u so much, stay strong girl!!!! Keep going!!!! OMG, ayu is just more than a singer!! I duno how to say, but she's so real with her emotions..... she dun portray a diva-like personality... which I think, earns alot of respect from us....

I see alot of maturity in her post..... stay strong ayu!!!! loads of love....

[ayu_ready?]

it is very sincere like a scream of soul or what?
as we know Ayu never tells about her personal life
but that was really smth, really amazing

that's why I love her & respect

[aqua_crystal]

That was.... really sad. I hope it doesn't affect Ayu in the future....

[Zemus]

Originally Posted by Echiko

Does anyone know who is aneki? o.o

Originally Posted by zoomzoom

Click the ayumix link and you'll see explanations. Aneki is a word for sister or best female friend it says.

Seems like it's a person named 尾形あゆみ (Ogata Ayumi), she was an actress in Twins Teacher drama in 1993. A drama that Ayu starred in as well. She refers to her as "Aneki" or something: http://ip.tosp.co.jp/i.asp?i=ayufamily0

[ayujarl]

spotted in a news section in online newspaper (on.cc, HK newspaper)

步姐爆「姊姊」身故心情跌谷底
30/06/2008

昨日完成東京代代木國立競技場最後一場巡迴演出的濱崎步，前日在歌迷會專用Blog上留言，自爆「姊姊」去 年逝世。原來去年秋天她正在洛杉磯拍宣傳照及灌錄唱片時，一名她視為好姊妹的人在日本逝世，其母透過工作人 員通知步姐，但職員為恐影響工作進度，沒有告知她，直至她回國才得知噩耗，但「姊姊」已化成骨灰，步姐坦言 被隱瞞十分殘酷，事件對她打擊很大，有段時間變得沉默。

其後於去年大除夕開倒數演唱會時，步姐更發現一向有毛病的左耳完全失聰，在雙重打擊下，她感到極度沮喪，只 有懇求「姊姊」在天之靈保佑她，有網友獲悉後狂轟步姐公司avex冷血，但有Fans質疑她是否借事件博同 情谷新碟。

Ayu, we all support you by strong!

[summersnow]

ganbatte ayu!!!

[tayukuu]

oh, god! until now, Ayu wrote what she thought. this message makes me love Ayu more & wanna be beside Ayu more. Ayu's not along, I'm not alone. We'll together forever & ever. thanks for this message, Ayu!
thanks for sharing this, too

[ownsarai]

Ayu has been through so much. Keep strong Ayu~

[4ever*ayu]

It's so much more than just a message from ayu this time....
very long..very sad...and painful..
but in other hand i feel really happy and grateful as ayu decided to keep on singing for her fans..
....Arigatou ayu....a beautiful fighter...

Thx for the translation.

[extepan]

one newspaper translated the article as "sister" of ayu dead. now it is clarified that it is not ayu's sister...

Awwww. This was one of my cheesy "Ayu you are my inspiration, I love you to bits" teary moments.

I'd give my left arm just to hug Ayu right now. (First time reading this).

I feel sorry for her...Let's send her hugs!

[BluishDays]

Thanks so much for sharing this !! Ayu's so strong and beautiful <3 She truly is a wonderful person. I feel so sad for her but also very proud, She's strong enough to pick her self up always thinking of everyone else, the fans, she works so hard, and gives her all. ; ; I'm happy ayu's in a better place, Last year was so hard on her.

[rakeru]

there can't be a person in the world who doesn't love her after reading that. i think i'm still crying...