(miss)understood

[masa]

I said to myself "I'm OK"
And showed my usual smile
I didn't feel in desperation
But in a kind of defiance

I hid my trembling hand
Because their sympathy was so hollow

I don't get warmed
By the half-hearted and artificial warmth
I rather want them to shut their eyes
Until I break into pieces without a trace

I don't want to hear nor speak
The fine words any longer
The pain will be getting worse
So I just accept it

The air is awfully clear
The calm before a storm

What do those people really want to know
With seemingly kindness
Hiding a sharp knife of curiosity
Behind their gentle looking eyes?

What do you really want?
What do you really wish?
Where do you really aim for?
And with whom?

It's the first and the last time
For you to live just as yourself
You should draw your own way
After spreading a big map


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Edited by AHS Staff
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[Ryoko]

daijoubu datte iikikasete
tokui no egao ni kirikaeru
nageyari datte iu n ja nakute
hirakinaotta tte iu kankaku

furueru te o kakushita no wa
doujou ga samusugiru kara

chuutohanpa de misekake dake no
nukumori nanka ja atatamaranai
sore nara isso minai furi shite
atokata mo naku kudakechiru made

imasara kirei goto da nante
kiku tsumori mo iu tsumori mo nai
itami wa fueru ippou darou
naraba uketometeyuku made sa

kowai kurai sunda kuuki wa
arashi ga kuru mae no shizukesa

shinsetsu sou na ano hitobito wa
hontou wa nani o shiritai no darou
yasashige na me no oku ni surudoi
kouki to iu na no naifu kakushite

kimi wa ittai nani ga hoshii no
kimi wa ittai nani o negau no
kimi wa ittai doko o mezasu no
soshite soko e wa dare to mukau no

kimi ga kimi de ikirareru no wa
saisho de saigo kono ichido dake
ooki na chizu o hirogeta ato wa
kimi dake no michi o egakeba ii