the person that passed away...

[Teyla]

That's sad

[Qt Mashi]

Originally Posted by tethevo

More on her: Ayu and she lived together for a long time before.

how do u know that?

[tethevo]

Originally Posted by Qt Mashi

how do u know that?

It's written on many Japanese websites (of course I would never know for sure if this is true).

[Qt Mashi]

Originally Posted by tethevo

It's written on many Japanese websites (of course I would never know for sure if this is true).

ahhh icic thanks

[Mari-chan]

Ah.. I love the SOng "untitled for her". It is such a sad song. The Lyrics are greate. But.. befor, I don't knew, it was for a friend, who passed away.
It makes the song more sad. (-.-)

[AyUmIXx]

at first i thought that song was for ayu's obaachan...then i just realized that her friend was not so long ago died..

[AyaCere]

Well, the song 'Wishing' was written for Natsuki.
I feel sorry for Ayu.

[Ayumi_lover]

really sad. Ayu feels now so alone without a friend and a Tomoya...

[hiroshi_ben]

i finally understand the story behind this "GUILTY" album...anw its really sad hearing all these...hope ayu will get over it soon~

[Maxker]

is this the woman? Poor Ayu.

[Yoake]

It's really sad!

[hiroshi_ben]

i really love how brave n strong ayu is...i can tell that shes really lonely now...and i really hope that shes really happy n had get over those sad things when shes laughing n smiling on those recent tv shows..and not doing it for the fans bcuz she wan us to know she had get over it...

and ayu really have the best lyrics ever...she expresses her feelings n emotions well...

[hanabinokisetsu]

moreover the person was about the same age as ayu... it's really feel terrible when you have a friend that is of the same age as you who died suddenly...

[AyUmIXx]

hmm.. that woman was not older than ayu? because seeing the link that was given by someone else on the previous page.. she was born in 1976...

and i really didn't know that Ayu had her as the closest friend because i had barely seen the pics of Ayu and her..
mostly were AYu with that mika noguchi~

[Aga-chan]

Natsuki is two years older, yes, but I think what hanabinokisetsu meant is that they're close in age. It's only two years, not twenty or something.

I didn't know Natsuki was a model(?). I thought she isn't a celebrity.

[alternarist]

yeah this is really saddening! i feel ashamed that i feel that ayu's lyrics are always talking about the same thing. Now i noe that the song is actually meant for her and how the whole album of GUILTY was constructed.. i feel that GUILTY is a good album!!

[Not~Yet]

Originally Posted by hanabinokisetsu

moreover the person was about the same age as ayu... it's really feel terrible when you have a friend that is of the same age as you who died suddenly...

Yeah I think it was a suicide, or at least the lyrics of untitled~for her~ seem something like that... But I'm impressed how Ayu pulls herself together, we all know awful it is/would be to lose your best friend.
Though she doesn't seem to think she has "lost" her, just that she isn't anymore physically there with her.

[truehappiness]

I wonder if the "SPECIAL THANKS" section was taken out because she couldn't bear to write all those names down... without her name in it? D:~

[Natsuki is in just about every album booklet except GUILTY in the SPECIAL THANKS at the end]

Even more background about Natsuki from masa's translation of ALL NIGHT NIPPON:

In this program tonight, Hamasaki Ayumi is talking much about the real Ayu instead of London Boots Ichigou-san. Er, as was written in the article of "TV Bros" I introduced at the opening, the great majority of Ayu's friends are males, which is quite obvious if looking at the address page of my handyphone. I wonder why. I feel somehow girls are groups. For example, they go to the toilet together, or when someone of the group is angry at a girl outside the group, it often happens that another girl in the group says, " I'm disgusted with her, too." I have such an image. It may be the reason why it's hard for me to keep company with them. It's much harder for me to talk with a girl than to talk with a boy. Why? I don't know the clear reason. But there is the only one exception. I've got a female friend recently. I happened to meet her at a Karaoke house half a year ago. She was quite drunk then and when Ayu was sitting in the room, she suddenly came to sit next to me and said,"Don't you like to eat avocados?"(Laugh) Ayu started to work as this soon after I had come up to Tokyo, and everyone around me had been taking good care for me. But she suddenly talked to me, "Don't you like to eat avocados?"(Laugh) It was the first experience to me and I thought "What's the girl?" But I felt somewhat curious at the same time, and attracted by her strange and natural character. I went to another restaurant together with her and ate avocado salads together as she recommended so. (Laugh) Ayu didn't like to eat avocado salads at all. I don't even like avocado, but it was like I was compelled to follow her then. The name of the girl is Natsuki, as she was born on May 26, just before the summer (natsu) comes. She is twenty-two years old, two years older than Ayu. Her family name is Toyoda. I knew it lately and thought, "Ah she has such a family name." And she also didn't seem to know my real name, Hamasaki Ayumi, thinking that the real name of Ayu is Ayu, too. She asked me for the first time the other day, "Which is the correct name of Ayu, Ayumi or Ayu?" Then I thought we are strangely alike. (Laugh) But I sometimes feel actually that she has lived two years longer than me. The first time I felt so was when I was troubled very much with my work and private life. I locked the door, pulled out the phone line, shut off the power of my handyphone, and had been home alone without going out anywhere for about three days. I heard from the staff later that everyone had got flurred then, saying "Where has Ayu gone?" But I didn't know such a fact then. I was home alone, and that at the veranda with gusts of winds blowing, thinking what I should do, what I should do, without finding the answer. Maybe it was on the third day. There was a boom sound at the entrance suddenly, and I heard a man-like woman's shouting voice, "Ayu -- ! Ayu ! Where are you?"(Laugh) Ayu couldn't guess what happened, surprised and hid at the veranda. Then she got into my apartment in her own way, breaking through the auto-locked entrance and the locked door, which I don't know how she did, and came to the veranda shouting "What are you doing?" Frightened and showing up, I found it was Natsuki. She shouted, "Do you know how much everyone is anxious about you?", seized me by the collar and made me stand up. (Laugh) She was shouting in tears, and Ayu said I was sorry in tears, too. As I said a little time ago, Ayu had never been scolded by Mommy and seldom been warned by my friends even when I did something wrong. It was really for the first time that someone seized me by the collar, made me stand up and roared at me, "What are you doing?" I was really surprised, but never felt disgusted or so. I thought strongly at that time that if Ayu had a family, it would be like this. Well, so, Natsuki has been great and important in Ayu's heart since then. I feel she is the first person who broke through the wall in Ayu's heart and I've met such a person for the first time in my life of twenty years. And I thought I'd like to write a song for her. As I'm shy and cannot say I thank her nor I'm sorry face to face. I thought I could only make a song and deliver my message. I wrote this lyrics thinking of Natsuki, and a close friend to you. Please listen. "Wishing" by Hamasaki Ayumi.

So, in a way... Natsuki "broke through" to Ayu early on in her career? :O

[hanabinokisetsu]

Originally Posted by truehappiness

So, in a way... Natsuki "broke through" to Ayu early on in her career? :O

I think what happened was that Natsuki was the first person who some sort of "wakes" ayu up...

[Mirai Noah]

Originally Posted by Calico

It's probably for the best. Such things really aren't our business anyway. But that would explain a lot now. =\

Yeah, I agree.