[Shocking news] TA message 204

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This kinda makes me think that her crying during MY ALL is a culmination of all the holding it in during the other numbers when she's supposed to be energetic.. seeing as how this show is to commemorate Natsuki in a way as well as celebrate her anniversary and she's disappointed that she is unable to hit the notes, thus the crying....

SURREAL's laughter in the middle of the song, as for glitter too.. could be that she's trying to laugh off the whole thing..

Here's an excerpt of her TalkAsia thing about her "feelings":

Ayu: My job is simply to be myself, to be Ayumi Hamasaki. I might have a day during which I feel upset or sad, or perhaps a day when I feel very happy about something. No matter what my mood, my job is to sing as Ayumi Hamasaki all the time regardless of how I'm feeling on any particular day. For instance, when I'm performing on a music show, I would have just 5 minutes to sing one of my songs. My job is to sing a song of Ayumi Hamasaki in just a short 5 minutes of time. It doesn't matter whether I feel sad or angry at any given time. Of course, I don't always want to show those feelings either, but what can I say? I have feelings too, as I am a human being, so I put the emotions into all my songs.

Perhaps this was kinda what happened at CDL, and she broke? Frustration and stuff got to her? :\