[Utada Hikaru] Volume XLVIII: The Return of the Queen

[pheonixflame15]

That was so painful to watch

[Lady~Deviance]

It was painful to watch a clip of Hikaru helping load her mother's coffin in the back of the hearse only to have the press immediately harass her. I almost cried watching her suffer through their selfish need for a word from her.

It reminded me when Namie was ruthlessly harassed at the airport on her way to see her mother's body years ago. She was hysterically crying and the press kept on shoving their cameras in her face.

Just pitiful.

[hayasaki]

that was really sad. I got no words. I want to hug her so tight especially when she was about to cry.

[Not Fade Away]

Utada's father's statement:

An update, and words of thanks

With regards to the late Utada Junko's suicide, I would like to sincerely apologize, both as representative of the agency to which she belonged to and as her former husband of 25 years, for all the trouble and inconvenience this incident has brought about to all those concerned in the various industries, to the fans of Fuji Keiko, and to the fans of Utada Hikaru. I would also like to take this opportunity to express my heartfelt gratitude and thanks for all the kind words and well-wishes sent to both Utada Hikaru and myself.

As per the wishes of the deceased as expressed in her will, both an all-night vigil and a funeral were not carried out. (Translator's notes: Seems like there will only be a cremation.)

Ever since I met her, I recognized that there was some degree of emotional instability within her, but instead of seeing it as a mental illness, I simply came to terms with it by viewing her as a uniquely "whimsical" person, and perceived it as something I could deal with adequately enough.

It was when Utada Hikaru was around 5 that these emotional changes started becoming more noticeable. She would launch aggressive words and actions towards my mother, the late Takeyama Sumiko, and even Hikaru and myself soon became the targets of her attacks. However, her emotional changes were frequent, and days where she'd go, "Sorry, I've caused trouble again", and reflect on her actions a few minutes after her outbursts continued on for a long period of time. When her suffering became more frequent, she was advised on numerous occasions after being examined at hospitals to undergo appropriate treatments, but this advice instead caused her to develop feelings of mistrust towards me. In the end, I believe that her suffering became a lot graver as the years went by and she continuously refused treatment.

In these twelve recent years, she lived life as she pleased, going on vacations and trips when they came to her. She got an American visa that allowed her to stay in the country for a maximum of five years upon entry, and made New York her base, frequently travelling to the European countries, various parts of America, and Australia as and when she felt like it.

While living such a lifestyle, she would call Hikaru and myself regardless of the time of day and without any prior notification; while there were times where she'd ask "How're you doing?" and the conversation would continue on normally, there were also times where she'd yell at us for no apparent reason, and we were very worried about her, her mental condition speaking to us very plainly through her words.

The last time I spoke with Junko was on the 14th August this year. It was her who called me. This time, it was one of the few occasions where Junko's voice had a cheerful tone and she sounded energetic. It lasted eight minutes, including some small talk, and after accepting a few requests from her, I hung up the phone. And eight days later, she committed suicide.

It is impossible to know whether Junko made an active decision to take the leap, or whether it was an act of impulse. All I can say is that I am filled to the brim with regret for having been unable to help her in her situation, and with sadness for having lost someone dear to me.

I would like to express my gratitude towards everyone who has watched over Utada Junko and Fuji Keiko with all their love on her behalf. Thank you all very much.

The time I spent with Junko is firmly engraved into my memory, and will never fade away.

26th August, 2013

Utada Teruzane

[AyuGAME]

a very touching message...

thanks for sharing...

[CoriKaru]

I don't know if I would have revealed all of that. He said too much. Utada kept it vague. Her father gave us a cheat sheet.

[brener]

thank u, im gonna read it asap..

[terra]

OMG It's really heartbreaking to see her like that

[~StarCatcher~]

Those were really nice words from father Utada.

I wish all fo the family that they can be as happay as possible soon.

[Minttulatte]

I've commented this on every other site except here I see. It's so sad to see her so sad. I hope they'll be OK eventually. :<

And those paparazzi should be punched in the face! They're so rude. >_>

[CoriKaru]

Naked Druggy Wants To Hear Utada Sing About Her Dead Mother

[Delicious n Bold]

Originally Posted by Lady~Deviance

It was painful to watch a clip of Hikaru helping load her mother's coffin in the back of the hearse

Where is the video? I've only seen the one where she's hounded by the paparazzi while she's in the car.

[emi♡]

Her father is so unlikable.

[ayu_ready?]

so painful

[bluegie]

^^I dunno. Probly he's just being honest. I do think he revealed a bit more than he should.

Originally Posted by CoriKaru

Naked Druggy Wants To Hear Utada Sing About Her Dead Mother

I hope she didn't really say sth like, "I want utada hikaru to write a song about her mother's suicide and her feelings regarding it." Not to mention that the statement is rude, but also only brainless people would say something like that. Who on Earth would write a song about parent's death (esp. about suicide/tragic death)? If she really said that, I think she's still on drugs then.

[Zahara]

^To answer your question, Yoshiki of X Japan did.

The female who stated that has her own demons to work through, she should have kept her mouth shut...

[emi♡]

ugh the DRAMA always permeating everything in Japan...like...ugh. Like who even cares about Tomomi.

*breathe* This culture is just not my thing.

[bluegie]

Originally Posted by Zahara

^To answer your question, Yoshiki of X Japan did.

The female who stated that has her own demons to work through, she should have kept her mouth shut...

Hmmn, I searched for Tears translation. It's quite touching. He didn't really explicitly mentioned the death tho. Anywayz, I still can't imagine hikki writing a song about her mom's suicide. I'm sure she may write something to remember her mom, but not to the way that female specially said though. She's just mental (if all the recent rumours about her are true).

[Zahara]

Tears I don't believe was for his father, but Forever Love and Art of Life were. He's gone on in interviews stating those songs were his way of coming to terms with the loss of his father.

Utada shouldn't feel any pressure from that woman to do anything. She needs time to come to terms with what just happened, that tomomoi or whatever her name is shouldn't be the person speaking at a time like this.

[Chibi-Chan]

I like that her father was that honest. He wasn't saying anything bad about his wife he just described the progress of her disease. I think it's important that people speak honestly about mental illness, 'cos one of the reasons a lot of people with mental illness don't search for help is the stigma that comes along with it. If people learn that a lot of people, even those they admired, have a mental illness it becomes more "normal". And those with a mental illness would be able to go to a doctor like they would with a broken leg.
After reading his entry I was really upset and asked myself how much Junko Utada must have suffered all the years, but I think I will (hopefully) never know that.