Ayumi featured in Mika Noguchi's blog

[Maxker]

Originally Posted by babamon

Rough translation:

If i want to write about this matter, i guess it should be today.
Actually it's very long ago, there was this period when i feel like quitting as a president. During the management meeting, i announced that i will be quitting very soon as well, giving those around me quite a lot of trouble.

Although i used to like fufiling my dreams in life, but whenever i thought of the staffs that had been with me, can i really quit like this myself? This had been troubling me everyday.

In the first place i never wanted to be a president.
But after working so hard, i just somehow gotten this position.
It kept giving me the feeling that it's something against my wish.

What i wanted to do isn't this!
Rebel or whatever. I always think the fault lies in others, or perhaps i'm just finding someone like myself.

Speaking of talents, I think that's what everyone has.
However, it's not something that u can decide yourself, but rather, acknowledged by others.
Getting praised,
helping others out, in reality it is all for my own benefits.
It is then that i realised the true meaning of my talent.

I believe my talents is that i have originality.
I believe so ever since i was young, and had been moving on towards that direction.
However, that direction was a mistake.
Right now, as an operator,
i had been given a fine reputation by others (Of course there are bad ones as well)
earning money, (There are times i couldn't earn any)
expectations by others (I could only think of it this way)
Overall, i can only say, i guess this is wat makes up my talent.
So as long as there's anyone that expect something out of me, i will be determined and move forward on that road.

Recently, I had been chatting with my staffs regarding some other colleagues of mine.
"Isn't it very impressive, the earnings he had made from all those he had done, even if he stops working he will not have to worry about his life in the future"
"Isn't president like this too?"
"......"
Yeah, i hasn't noticed in the past, that even if i stop working now i will not have any problems with my living in the future.
But i had never think of how life would be like if i stop working for years.

However, after i met Ayumi Hamasaki, the thoughts of quitting had never cross my mind again.

When i first get to know her, it was during those times when i was about to announce quitting.
It was during her TOP STAR moment, climbing to the top.
Guess it was due to some bad encounters that she escaped to where i was at that time.
Ever since then, we had been living together, sharing our feelings and thoughts.
Not long later, she brought some of the staffs over to my house that has to confirm her costumes, sound and visual problems.

Looking at her,
giving them different instructions,
even those backstage work which artistes wouldn't get to see, she has to inspect them.
Quite often, she even needs to amend those wordings that are written in an unclear manner
I was so amazed with her precise observation and imagination
Day and night, a huge amount of workload is always waiting for her.
And what i saw, is the utmost professionalism and diligence an artiste could give.

Her determination, sensitivity and of course her lovely features,
has seriously touched my heart and soul.
As compared to any other things, the attitude of this genius got me deeply attracted to it.

In order to live together with this person, i must achieve this as well.

No. Instead, i should be the role model of this person since i'm much older.

I must do more work than this person, because in order to discuss matter with her, it got to be people like Madonna, Matsutoya Yumi, Seiko Matsuda etc.

After much consideration,
I can't lose in work, thanks to her.
Therefore in the end i became pretty hardworking

Of course, this isn't just because of her.
There had been others who encouraged me, and supported me to move forward as well..

However, she's still the most special one to me.
I'm so thankful that i had met her.
Thank god.
If we didn't, i guess we will be so different from each other now.
I always feel that whenever you are working out there,
There will be times when you are glad, but at the same time painful, that you surpassed others.

Always trying your best to fufil the expectations of others, I respect you.
Ganbatte! The songstress of Asia!

After performing at Kouhaku still have to rush before CDL starts.
No matter when it is always this anxious, actually it's quite pitiful.

The reason i wrote this long is because of the news today.
The message that was intended for her fans only, had became the news for the media. It's pretty frightening.
Even if you remain depress it's not going to help.
She will quickly go for training, and is determined to show everyone when she had overcome it.
I'm not trying to explain anything here, just being a busybody.

OMG THIS IS THE HARDEST TRANSLATION I HAVE DONE EVER -_- Sorry if i made some mistakes here and there. I tried my best..

このことを書くなら、
今日かな、と。　


ずいぶん昔のことだけど、
会社を、というか、社長を辞めたくてしょうがなかった時期があって、
役員会でも、近々辞める！と宣言して、
さんざん周りをふりまわしたことがありました。
　　

違う道を夢見ることは楽しかったけれど、
それまで一緒にやってきたスタッフのことを思うと、
本当に自分だけが辞めていいのかどうか、
ぐるぐるしていた毎日でした。
深く深く悩んでいた毎日でした。

もともと、社長になりたかったわけじゃなし、
必死に仕事してたら、そういうコースになってしまった、
いつも自分では不本意な気持ちでいっぱいでした。　
　
わたしがしたかったことはコレではない！　
反逆的で何でも人のせいにばかりして、自分探しの部類だったかもしれません。

　
　
才能とは、
誰にでもあるものだと思う。
　
でも、才能とは、
自分で決めることでもなく、
人に認められてこそ、だと思う。
賞賛されたり、
人のためになったり、
現実的には利益になったり。　
　
　
わたし自身は、
そのことに気がついたときから、
自分の才能の特性を知りました。
　
わたしは、自分の才能はクリエイティブにあると、
若いときから思っていたし、その方向にいきたいと望んでいました。　　
　
でも、方向がずれた。　


いまでこそ、わたしは周りから経営者として、
ほめられて（けなされることもあるけど）、
お金が儲かって（儲からないこともやるけど）、
期待されている（と思うしかない）。
　
つまり、これがわたしの才能なのでしょう。
いまは自覚を持って、この道をまっすぐ進んでいるつもり。　
求めてくれる人がいる限り。
　
　
　
　
最近、他社の役員について、部下と話したときのこと。
「えらいよねぇ、彼って前の仕事でひと財産築いて、働かなくたって一生食べていけるのに」　
「社長だってそうじゃないですか」
「・・・。」

そうなんだ。
気づかなかった。　
わたしって働かなくたって、辞めてしまっても、食べていけるんだ。　
この何年も働かない生活なんて考えたこともなかった。　
　　

わたしは、浜崎あゆみと出会ってからというもの、
仕事を辞めようなんて思わなくなっていたのでした。
　
　
あゆと知り合ったとき、
それは、ちょうど会社を辞めると宣言したばかりのとき。　
　
彼女がちょうどトップスターとして頂点に登ったころ。
　
嫌な事があったらしく、
ちょうど知り合ったばかりの、
わたしのところに逃げてきたのでした。　


その日から、合宿のような日々を過ごして、
お互いを感じ合っていると、
まもなく、
彼女を追って、
衣装合わせだの、音源やら映像やらあらゆる確認ごとを持ったスタッフが、
わたしんちにまでぞろぞろ出入りするようになりました。


その様子を見ていると、
仕事の指示は的確で、
見えないはずの裏の作業まで、すべて彼女にはお見通し。
よくあるあいまいな書類の書き方にまで注文をつけ、
どんなごまかしも利かない、ストレートな洞察力と想像力。
そして、昼夜を問わず、膨大な仕事量がどこまでも追いかけて来る、
彼女がアーティストとして完璧であろうとする努力を見てしまったのです。
　
目の当たりにした激しさと、
揺るがない素直さと、
感度の高さと、
素顔の可愛らしさに、
たちまちノックアウトされてしまったわたし。　
　
そして、なによりも、その天才的な仕事っぷりに深く惚れ込んでしまったのです。
　
　
この人と、
並んで生きていくには、
同じぐらい仕事をしなければならない、
　
いや、むしろ、
ずっと年上のわたしは、
この人の道標になるべきで、
この人以上に仕事をしなければならない、
だって、
この人の相談に乗れる相手は、
マドンナかユーミンか松田聖子ぐらいしかいない、
　
そう思うようになった後は、

負けじと仕事して、
おかげさまで、
わたしも結局、ずっとがんばってこれているのです。　
わたしは、わたしの世界の中でだけど。　
　

もちろん、
彼女だけではなく、
その他にも、わたしを駆り立てる存在は少なくありません。
多くの人によってわたしは支えられています。

けれど、やっぱりわたしにとって彼女は特別。
本当に会えてよかった。
会ってなかったら、
いまのお互いはないかもしれないぐらい、最高に励みな関係。
神様に感謝。　　

　
　
自らが表に出て仕事することには、
人並み以上の喜びがあるのと同じぶんだけ、
人並み以上の苦しみもあります。　
　
いろんな痛みを知っているぶん、
多くの人の悲しみや喜びを表現する役割を担っているのだと思います。　　　　

　


望む人がいる限り、
それは、あなたの才能。
惜しみなく、その才能を使っていこう。　　
　
　

　
　
いつも全力で人の期待に応えようと努力する、きみを尊敬しています。　
がんばれ！アジアの歌姫！　


　
紅白出演後の慌ただしいカウントダウンライブの本番直前。　
いつだってものすごく緊張してるんだって、実は。カワイソに。
　　
　
　
　
さて、こんなことをつらつら書く気になったのも今日のニュースのせいでした。　

本人は、ファンにだけ伝えようと書いたつもりだったのに、
メディアでニュースとなったことに、恐縮し（ビビっ）ていました。　
ずっと落ち込んでいてもしょうがないから、　
出来る限りのトレーニングをして、
絶対克服してみせると張り切っていました。
　　　
って、ここでわたしが解説することでもないんだけど、
おせっかいということで！！☆　

http://www.1oven.com/mika_noguchi/index.html

[VAL]

traslation please XD

[polka-dot-jewel]

O________O That's long! I have a feeling it may be about Ayu's ear, though. =( A translation would be nice, too. ^__^

And I do like that picture. =D

[criminal]

What a strange picture. The belt is fierce, though.

[dayumi]

Maybe that's the costume for Asia Tour 2008? lol

[Bad Wolf]

Ooh, I like that picture. D:

[Choyan]

that outfit looks nice...perhaps the black one was more classy XD~
thanks

you know, it really makes me think it's a piratey theme, the peasant blouse-ish, and the jewel -ly belt XD~

[ayuayu798]

I hope we get a translation soon ^^

[Azmaria]

that outfit looks like the talkin' 2 myself she used in CDL just in purple I belive

translation would be nice

[WillofDusk]

Costume designing for AT08!

[minna]

the costume looks really nice *_*

[Teyla]

nice costume
wait for translation

[benslave4u]

oh it's from the countdown live! You can tell the staff is wearing the CDL 07-08 t shirts~ I just they just changed the color of the picture to more purple

[geneticboi]

perhaps Asia Tour costume! mmm mmm

[Eigakan]

I like the rhinestones belt she's wearing.

[zoomzoom]

Haha odd picture.. looks like she's sitting on that persons head

[Ayumiko]

purple? it can't be from the cdl can it? and everyone else is wearing purple as well.

[nightlightyear]

This IS a long blog! I hope we get a trans soon!

Originally Posted by Choyan

you know, it really makes me think it's a piratey theme, the peasant blouse-ish, and the jewel -ly belt XD~

I hope so! XD Yeah I like the meshy sleeves and the pretty belt.

[bluegie]

well I used excite translator to see what it says in chinese... It's a bit confusing (well it's a online translator anywayz), but I guess ayu's declaration (about continuing singing even with one ear's not working) kinda affect mika's message. Mika talked about the time when she first met ayu was around the time she wanna resigned (from being president of her company?). Ayu's attitude towards work greatly changed her mind.. And then she kept on talking...

Something like that... .. LOL

One sentence attracts my eyes is she said something like, "With this person to live in a row, It is necessary to work in the same (according to the excite english translation)". I guess it means to match up ayu, she has to work very hard as well (cuz ayu is really hard working blah blah blah)...

[Ani_C]

That outfit looks pretty cool