ayu's DIARY entry 7/31/2009

[polka-dot-jewel]

An urgent message from Ayu which clearly involves a fan (gender not specified), particularly someone in TA...

An emergency...
7-31-2009 3h17

...which caused me to write this message.
Tomorrow, we will have a general meeting for a-nation, and even though I will admit that the stay in Kumamoto is not easy, I will not scorn, and I am apologizing because I am about to write a very personal message. Anyway, it involves a TA member, like you all are. So, forgive me. Or, rather, please join me in my message.
We must not abandon living!!!!!!!!!!
Stop wanting to go, and go home to your home!!!!!!
Me, and the members of TA, who are your friends, are by your side!!!
You are not alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We are not leaving you alone!!!!!
So, I must say, please stay alive.
Continue to live.
Yes, there may be in obstacles in life more difficult than others, but do not have it otherwise.
But, I will not let you down.
And, you know, there are many messages that have arrived, TA friends!!!!!!!!!!
All will pray for you...
All will support you...

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To all of you
7-31-2009 12h24

...really, really, thank you all for the messages.
I trust that all of our prayers will be answered.
Because, it is to believe that it is the substance of our hope.
Today, I will go to the general meeting, full of hope, with the treasures of my heart vibrating.
A-nation starts tomorrow, and even though some of you cannot participate, there will be those of who will be able to, and together, we will create our best summer memories together.
I am pleased with the TA who will be able to be there.



Japanese-French translation by cy@AyuAngel.com
French-English translation by me

[zellyx]

So, I'm assuming a TA member either is sick, or wants to suicide? ;~;
That's so sad! I'm happy Ayu is calling out to him/her!
Thanks again!

[zyoeru]

I think that TA member is being very sick. Even if he/she wants to commit suicide. It's incredibly mean and irresponsible letting Ayu know things like that...she's probably scared to death other him. Especially after it's likely her friend committed suicide also...

That person is really mean or very sick to do something like that...

[panda♥]

I wonder if she'll tell us what's wrong? ._.;

[zyoeru]

^ Probably not. I think it's weird how she posted something so personal in the first place. Poor Ayu she'll be terrified.. "/

[ren0210989]

gosh... sounds more suicidal than illnes to me...
but as much as i feel the TA members pain in life, it's not fair or even remotely sane to let Ayu know you're about to commit suicide, it can put a lot of pressure on her and carin as she is it WILL affect he deeply...

hope it all goes well

[Ayumiko]

wow...hope the TA member is ok...it was nice of ayu to put a message of encouragement.

[Dokiyo]

omg.....what a message...~ and ...i wonder what that TA member did that allowed her to get this info~ ..

[maze]

Originally Posted by Furashubakku

^ Probably not. I think it's weird how she posted something so personal in the first place. Poor Ayu she'll be terrified.. "/

i agree! this is quite rare. perhaps he/she just wanted to draw attention.
thanks for translations btw.

[AyUta]

It seems that the TA member wanted to commit suicide. I wish him/her the best!

[Chef+Vanny]

seems like the someone in TA wanted to commit suicide
ayu must have been teriffied

[KarenPang]

thanks for the update Chelsea

[waterballoon]

it appears like he/she wanted to die and posted it on the TA website... in any case, I'm touched by how much Ayu cares! ~_~

Thanks for translations!

[LacusClyne]

people, before you all start bashing that this TA member is trying to get attention. Are you sure he or she do this for attention?

i doubt so, from ayu's msg.
Read these lines,

'We must not abandon living!!!!!!!!!!
Me, and the members of TA, who are your friends, are by your side!!!
You are not alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We are not leaving you alone!!!!!
So, I must say, please stay alive.
Continue to live.
Yes, there may be in obstacles in life more difficult than others, but do not have it otherwise.'


it looks like this member has lost the hope in living, perhaps illness or too many obstacles in life. To me, i feel that this person felt lonely, perhaps no one by his/her side.

I'm one of those person who almost commit suicide, and i understand this feeling. Commiting suicide is not a prop for attention, it's because we don't have hope living anymore.

Spoiler:

if anyone notice that i'm missing away from the forum since my birthday, i was admit in hospital due to an accident ON MY BIRTHDAY EVE.
All i can say is i had been betray by my friend, and almost got killed, someone tried to push me to the road, i was almost knock down by a car, but luckily it stopped in time.
My dad is already admited in the SAME hospital(i was on my way to visit him), but the first thing he said to me is 'Why don't you watch the traffic before you cross the road!!!' yeah right! as if i knew i'm going to be push to the road!!!!

There was a period again when i feel so tired of living, but i pulled through....it's ayu who saved me again. i had my ipod with me and when i was better on sunday, the first song that pop out was 'a song for xx'. It's the same song that saved me when i was 15 years old, all my memories came back and....well....i told myself, at least there's ayu. Ayu who had been guiding me with her songs, Ayu who is a strong woman for me to learn from.....

This member might also just feel dependent on ayu, so that's why it got posted in TA

[SURREAL__RAINBOW]

ganbatte!! omg we support him/her!! <3

after watching Sunrise, yes, is not all black after all... we have each other as well as ourselves

[vampireknightzero]

i wonder what happened..

[freedreamer]

It's so nice that the member actuall confided in Ayu. I mean...it just goes to show how strong this idol-fan bond really is

[chloeM]

thanks for the translation~

[y_nathz]

hope he/she will be ok ..
ayu's so kind ..

[yuki_unmei]

Originally Posted by LacusClyne

people, before you all start bashing that this TA member is trying to get attention. Are you sure he or she do this for attention?

i doubt so, from ayu's msg.
Read these lines,

'We must not abandon living!!!!!!!!!!
Me, and the members of TA, who are your friends, are by your side!!!
You are not alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We are not leaving you alone!!!!!
So, I must say, please stay alive.
Continue to live.
Yes, there may be in obstacles in life more difficult than others, but do not have it otherwise.'


it looks like this member has lost the hope in living, perhaps illness or too many obstacles in life. To me, i feel that this person felt lonely, perhaps no one by his/her side.

I'm one of those person who almost commit suicide, and i understand this feeling. Commiting suicide is not a prop for attention, it's because we don't have hope living anymore.

This.

i think this person felt ayu was the only person they could tell.

i also almost committed suicide some time ago. i thought about it alot. i wish i'd had ayu back then.

i'm glad ayu is trying to reach out to them. i will pray for that person too, ayu!