bea's UP May 2012 cover + LANDS OF Eden insert

[MissElin_]

I never thought I was singeled out. Yet I still wanted to explain myself so people didn't think I was just complaining and had so substance underneith it. But thank you anyways.

I have never said that Ayu is too thin. Or that I think she looks like that in person either. (She looked perfectly healthy and fine when I met her in London for an example). I just think she looks too thin on that picture. Maybe that's what you meant too and you think she looks fine on that picture. That is more than okay. That's only personal taste and I guess. Rather than taste I should say "personal references" since that picture paints up bad memories of mine and scars I've seen this industry provided my friends. But since I do have those irl insights of the modeling world, maybe it's not that strange that I feel this negative way when I look at that picture.

I'm not saying that she never can take pictures from the side either. I'm just not that comfertable with that precise angle and shadows that kind of (at least for me and my sensetive brain) makes me think that Ayu is holding in her stomach to make her look more thin. Also the illusion of her ribs showing more than they really do feels unconfortable for me.

Ayu IS beautiful. She really is. She's stunning in reality. It's just that picture and the pictures illusions I'm bothered about. Not Ayus real appearence and body because they are truly amazing.